Need advice

[WonderWhatsOutThere]

Hi,

I've been deeply unwell for about 6 months and have considered various methods. I've tried a helium bag, couldn't get it to work. I've tried hanging, but can't see to get the right angle no matter how hard I try (I just can't seem to apply enough pressure on my arteries because I never pass out even when I hold them with my fingers. At most I lose vision for a second but then I'm fine even though the amount of pressure hasn't changed). I can't purchase a gun due to hospitalizations, I have no clue where to get SN, and something I ordered off the internet may not get here. I know for a fact I do not want to continue and will CTB at some point. The only reliable option I feel like I have is to jump from Royal Gorge Bridge, but I'd have to do it in front of a bunch of people because it closes around 6PM and I think they would see my car abandoned in the parking lot and start looking for me long before I could do it in the middle of the night (I considered hiding in a bathroom for a few hours but I don't know if that would work) not to mention the sheer amount of SI I would feel before jumping. I just... don't know what to do. Any advice for overcoming any of these challenges with these methods will be appreciated. I'm so sick and tired of waking up, feeling like shit, dozens of coping mechanisms not working, having my head hurt all day (which is new), hanging out with people and barely feeling a thing, being so depressed that I can't hold down a job or go to school, have medications and therapy consistently fail for two decades, and then going to bed knowing I'll CTB eventually

 

[Jisatsu]

You should reevaluate your methods , do research on ever aspect of the methods you are trying to do. Figure out a plan and go with it.

This is something you have to figure out on your own , this website has resources available for you to figure out how you can find peace.

 

[WonderWhatsOutThere]

You should reevaluate your methods , do research on ever aspect of the methods you are trying to do. Figure out a plan and go with it.

This is something you have to figure out on your own , this website has resources available for you to figure out how you can find peace.

I've gone through the resources here extensively. I find a lot of contradicting posts and the recommended methods have not worked for me despite following it as closely as I'm able to. Hence asking for further information/guidance as I feel like I'm missing something that I'm unaware of

 

[Jisatsu]

I've gone through the resources here extensively. I find a lot of contradicting posts and the recommended methods have not worked for me despite following it as closely as I'm able to. Hence asking for further information/guidance as I feel like I'm missing something that I'm unaware of

If you don't know any sn sources I'd say you haven't been on here long enough to do a good amount of research

 

[WonderWhatsOutThere]

If you don't know any sn sources I'd say you haven't been on here long enough to do a good amount of research

I've been a lurker for 6 months. I understand the procedure for SN perfectly but I have been unable to find an SN source on here as they are either unavailable (page has been taken down), do not ship to my country, or people refuse to give up their source and won't leave clues so that law enforcement won't shut them down (which I can understand but still leaves me in this position). I also did not just ask about SN but about how to possibly get around the problems with the other methods listed (such as the SI around jumping). I don't expect you or anyone else to perfectly solve my problem and I'm aware that there are likely a ton of good guides on here that I just haven't been able to find (which I've seen other people direct new folks to before by just replying with a SS link) , but if you're just going to tell me to "figure it out" and that I haven't done enough research when I've made it clear I've been planning this for a while now, then please don't respond. An unhelpful and somewhat condescending reply is worse than no reply at all.

Have a good day.

 

[Jisatsu]

I've been a lurker for 6 months. I understand the procedure for SN perfectly but I have been unable to find an SN source on here as they are either unavailable (page has been taken down), do not ship to my country, or people refuse to give up their source and won't leave clues so that law enforcement won't shut them down (which I can understand but still leaves me in this position). I also did not just ask about SN but about how to possibly get around the problems with the other methods listed (such as the SI around jumping). I don't expect you or anyone else to perfectly solve my problem and I'm aware that there are likely a ton of good guides on here that I just haven't been able to find (which I've seen other people direct new folks to before by just replying with a SS link) , but if you're just going to tell me to "figure it out" and that I haven't done enough research when I've made it clear I've been planning this for a while now, then please don't respond. An unhelpful and somewhat condescending reply is worse than no reply at all.

Have a good day.

If you get your ability to privately message, I'll help you find sources.

 

[Eriktf]

I've been a lurker for 6 months. I understand the procedure for SN perfectly but I have been unable to find an SN source on here as they are either unavailable (page has been taken down), do not ship to my country, or people refuse to give up their source and won't leave clues so that law enforcement won't shut them down (which I can understand but still leaves me in this position). I also did not just ask about SN but about how to possibly get around the problems with the other methods listed (such as the SI around jumping). I don't expect you or anyone else to perfectly solve my problem and I'm aware that there are likely a ton of good guides on here that I just haven't been able to find (which I've seen other people direct new folks to before by just replying with a SS link) , but if you're just going to tell me to "figure it out" and that I haven't done enough research when I've made it clear I've been planning this for a while now, then please don't respond. An unhelpful and somewhat condescending reply is worse than no reply at all.

Have a good day.

the thing is... its been answer many times...
lurking dont show much of the site.

SN sources
-we are gatekeeping from new users with good reasons

for less SI get more depressed or accept death works for me..

Any advice for overcoming any of these challenges with these methods will be appreciated?
-not sure what went wrong so it hard to say anything else then refer you here:

Suicide Resource Compilation

All the links to threads, videos, audio, downloads, and information found here are being made available only for educational purposes, and have been shared by users; we cannot assure the accuracy of the data. This means the way you use this data is fully your responsibility, that you need to...

sanctioned-suicide.net

sorry for your suffering hope it get better

 

[WonderWhatsOutThere]

If you get your ability to privately message, I'll help you find sources.

Sorry that I was rude. I'm just tired and really frustrated with how hard it is to CTB. I didn't mean to take it out on you, I'm sorry

the thing is... its been answer many times...
lurking dont show much of the site.

SN sources
-we are gatekeeping from new users with good reasons

for less SI get more depressed or accept death works for me..

Any advice for overcoming any of these challenges with these methods will be appreciated?
-not sure what went wrong so it hard to say anything else then refer you here:

Suicide Resource Compilation

All the links to threads, videos, audio, downloads, and information found here are being made available only for educational purposes, and have been shared by users; we cannot assure the accuracy of the data. This means the way you use this data is fully your responsibility, that you need to...

sanctioned-suicide.net

sorry for your suffering hope it get better

Yeah, I understand that anyone can join this site and that SN sources have to be guarded since you guys don't really know if I'm actually after CTB or to take down a source as some form of "justice". Like, I've found a few sources but they just didn't work out

the thing is... its been answer many times...
lurking dont show much of the site.

SN sources
-we are gatekeeping from new users with good reasons

for less SI get more depressed or accept death works for me..

Any advice for overcoming any of these challenges with these methods will be appreciated?
-not sure what went wrong so it hard to say anything else then refer you here:

Suicide Resource Compilation

All the links to threads, videos, audio, downloads, and information found here are being made available only for educational purposes, and have been shared by users; we cannot assure the accuracy of the data. This means the way you use this data is fully your responsibility, that you need to...

sanctioned-suicide.net

sorry for your suffering hope it get better

Yeah, I understand that anyone can join this site and that SN sources have to be guarded since you guys don't really know if I'm actually after CTB or to take down a source as some form of "justice". Like, I've found a few sources but they just didn't work out

If you get your ability to privately message, I'll help you find sources.

You can privately message? How do you get that?

 

[Jisatsu]

Sorry that I was rude. I'm just tired and really frustrated with how hard it is to CTB. I didn't mean to take it out on you, I'm sorry

Yeah, I understand that anyone can join this site and that SN sources have to be guarded since you guys don't really know if I'm actually after CTB or to take down a source as some form of "justice". Like, I've found a few sources but they just didn't work out

Yeah, I understand that anyone can join this site and that SN sources have to be guarded since you guys don't really know if I'm actually after CTB or to take down a source as some form of "justice". Like, I've found a few sources but they just didn't work out

You can privately message? How do you get that?

You have to have a high amount of reaction scores and messages

 

[Eriktf]

You can privately message? How do you get that?

be active on the site then get chat and search and more private forums

 

[WonderWhatsOutThere]

If you get your ability to privately message, I'll help you find sources.

I can now search forums, so I think I have private messaging now

 

[copioushopelessness]

I've been a lurker for 6 months. I understand the procedure for SN perfectly but I have been unable to find an SN source on here as they are either unavailable (page has been taken down), do not ship to my country, or people refuse to give up their source and won't leave clues so that law enforcement won't shut them down (which I can understand but still leaves me in this position). I also did not just ask about SN but about how to possibly get around the problems with the other methods listed (such as the SI around jumping). I don't expect you or anyone else to perfectly solve my problem and I'm aware that there are likely a ton of good guides on here that I just haven't been able to find (which I've seen other people direct new folks to before by just replying with a SS link) , but if you're just going to tell me to "figure it out" and that I haven't done enough research when I've made it clear I've been planning this for a while now, then please don't respond. An unhelpful and somewhat condescending reply is worse than no reply at all.

Have a good day.

Also finding it hard to find a source. Lots of fakes. I'm so sorry you're struggling. I've been thinking about jumping as well but not sure if the bridge I'm near will be instant.

 

[WonderWhatsOutThere]

Also finding it hard to find a source. Lots of fakes. I'm so sorry you're struggling. I've been thinking about jumping as well but not sure if the bridge I'm near will be instant.

I THINK I found a real one. I'll have to wait for it to be delivered to run some tests. I know about the aquarium strips and blood test, but I've heard those don't tell you the purity just that it is SN

 

[copioushopelessness]

Hi,

I've been deeply unwell for about 6 months and have considered various methods. I've tried a helium bag, couldn't get it to work. I've tried hanging, but can't see to get the right angle no matter how hard I try (I just can't seem to apply enough pressure on my arteries because I never pass out even when I hold them with my fingers. At most I lose vision for a second but then I'm fine even though the amount of pressure hasn't changed). I can't purchase a gun due to hospitalizations, I have no clue where to get SN, and something I ordered off the internet may not get here. I know for a fact I do not want to continue and will CTB at some point. The only reliable option I feel like I have is to jump from Royal Gorge Bridge, but I'd have to do it in front of a bunch of people because it closes around 6PM and I think they would see my car abandoned in the parking lot and start looking for me long before I could do it in the middle of the night (I considered hiding in a bathroom for a few hours but I don't know if that would work) not to mention the sheer amount of SI I would feel before jumping. I just... don't know what to do. Any advice for overcoming any of these challenges with these methods will be appreciated. I'm so sick and tired of waking up, feeling like shit, dozens of coping mechanisms not working, having my head hurt all day (which is new), hanging out with people and barely feeling a thing, being so depressed that I can't hold down a job or go to school, have medications and therapy consistently fail for two decades, and then going to bed knowing I'll CTB eventually

Therapy also didn't work for me and the medication made me much worse.

 

[itsover14]

I THINK I found a real one. I'll have to wait for it to be delivered to run some tests. I know about the aquarium strips and blood test, but I've heard those don't tell you the purity just that it is SN

Hi, do you mind if I ask if it was ever delivered okay?