Venting Narcissistic Empathy

[dragonofenvy]

I'm so sick and tired of normal people who don't have to live like we do tell us about how things can get better.

We just have to keep trying! We have so much more of our life ahead of us! Some people just move through life at different speed. You should go to therapy, you should try this, or that.

Guess what? I've been in the mental health system for nearly my entire life. I've done all the things they've told me to do. I'm currently in therapy and taking my 6th different anti-depressant. Wow what a fucking surprise nothing's working. They just can't accept the reality that some people really are just put on this earth to be miserable their whole life. Oh but don't kill yourself because things will get better! Yeah you're the same person who kicks me whenever I complain about my problems but suddenly when I want to die then everything changes, but otherwise you call my life pathetic, call me a loser, and flippantly dismiss me. You'd be happy to lock me up in an institution and be a ward of the State just so you can pat yourself on the back, and tell yourself you did a good thing and feel good about yourself for a few minutes and then forget about me while I rot, imprisoned in my own mind, having it torture me each day for decades with no escape all while knowing you get to go along living a happy, normal life.

It's so unfair. I wonder how many of these people are fine with abortions, but go into frenzy if you want to make the conscious decision to take your own life after you've tried so hard to make it better.

My life, my choice. But I guess I don't get autonomy do I? Doesn't sound morally consistent to me, but what do I know? I'm just a man who's mentally unwell. Just keep trying. You may have had clinical depression since you were 5 and have dealt with it for 20 years but it will get better!

Yeah I'd like to see one of them trade places with me for a month just so they can see what it's like. I bet they wouldn't even last a week. The only reason I've been able to go this long is because I don't have any kind of mental concept of what the alternative is. I would say I'm in a dark place, but that would imply that I've seen light before. I have not. I don't know what light looks like. I am blind.

 

[The Eternal One]

Normies are never empathetic or sympathetic for us and our struggles. Whenever they hop on to "comforting" us by empty platitudes, they're doing it to calm themselves only, because the topic of suicidality is making them uncomfortable. If a wall in their house has expressed suicidality, they'd be talking to it the same way, simply because they want to get rid of source of discomfort, not out of concern for someone in pain. They're talking to themselves, basically.

Yesterday I saw a Reddit post where some person claimed that all antinatalists tended to be depressed, mentally ill and suicidal, and everyone agreed with it. OP tried to thinly veil it as a post made out of pity and said that was merely an observation, not meant to impy anything, but the post itself and entire discussion afterwards revealed how people viewed depressed and suicidal people as less than human non-creatures ought to be always dismissed, incapable of rational thought, pathetic, disgusting trash under their feet.
They all think it, but they'll never say it openly. Us getting locked away in a ward somewhere, beat-for-beat the same as prison, isn't negligence of the system - it's set up by design this way, because normies hate us and want us to go away. They view us as a problem while actively refusing one thing that we genuinely want - quick and painless death. Because, again, normies' absolute unbothered comfort and bliss always come first, no matter what.

I've heard residents of Switherland were complaining about Dignitas, because occasionaly seeing coffins in the street was "just bad vibes, you guys :( makes US sad, you know :(". Scratch that someone's lives were so indescribably miserable (the majority of Dignitas clients are terminally ill patients) they had to choose euthanasia. Nay! Normies being reminded of icky suicidal people while travelling from their cushy well-paid jobs to healthy happy families and friends is the real bummer here, didn't you know?

The more you interact with normal people irl and on the Internet, the more it reveals how deeply self-centered and psychopathic everyone is.

 

[dragonofenvy]

Normies are never empathetic or sympathetic for us and our struggles. Whenever they hop on to "comforting us" by empty platitudes, they're doing it to calm themselves only, because the topic of suicidality is making them uncomfortable. If a wall in their house has expressed suicidality, they'd be talking to it the same way, simply because they want to get rid of source of discomfort, not out of concern for someone in pain. They're talking to themselves, basically.

Yesterday I saw a Reddit post where some person claimed that all antinatalists tended to be depressed, mentally ill and suicidal, and everyone agreed with it. OP tried to thinly veil it as a post made out of pity and said that was merely an observation, not meant to impy anything, but the post itself and entire discussion afterwards revealed how people viewed depressed and suicidal people as less than human non-creatures ought to be always dismissed, incapable of rational thought, pathetic, disgusting trash under their feet.
They all think it, but they'll never say it openly. Us getting locked away in a ward somewhere, beat-for-beat the same as prison, isn't negligence of the system - it's set up by design this way, because normies hate us and want us to go away. They genuinely view us as a problem while actively refusing one thing that we genuinely want - quick and painless death. Because, again, normies' absolute unbothered comfort and bliss always come first, no matter what.

I've heard residents of Switherland were complaining about Dignitas, because occasionaly seeing coffins in the street was "just bad vibes, you guys :( makes US sad, you know :(". Scratch that someone's lives were so indescribably miserable (the majority of "Dignitas" clients are terminally ill patients), they had to choose euthanasia. Nay! Normies being reminded of icky suicidal people while travelling from their cushy well-paid jobs to healthy happy families and friends is the real bummer here, didn't you know?

The more you interact with normal people irl and on the Internet, the more it reveals how deeply self-centered and psychopathic everyone is.

I think you described it better than I ever could. Your examples perfectly encapsulate the point.

 

[The Eternal One]

I think you described it better than I ever could. Your examples perfectly encapsulate the point.

While I'm deeply grateful for moments on this site similar to this where users are able to understand each other in ways impossible outside of our little bubble, I'm still sorry we've arrived to this place of deep mental anguish due to different life circumstances.

Wherever your road takes you, I wish you release of your pain and true peace. That's what all of us deserve.
I'm glad I was able to have this brief conversation with you and reach mutual understanding. It was a huge relief to put my frustrations to words and to read about yours. Thank you!

 

[Fadenself00_]

What an awesome write-up, thanks guys

 

[telekon]

honestly I never talk about my suicidality with anyone because I know no one would care