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Beachedwhale

Mage
Mar 3, 2021
526
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Alexander

Alexander

Member
Dec 11, 2018
35
1) Studying with more method and determination
2) Continuing phisical training
3) Getting a job
 
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WaterHemlock

WaterHemlock

Student
Dec 18, 2019
112
Continued meditating
Avoided gaining weight
Divorced my husband before he divorced me.

I really don't know if it would have helped but there's a chance.
Also not cashing in my pension when he stopped working.
And dropping $20 bucks on this new weird thing I never heard of called Bitcoin, many years ago.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
862
Nothing. You see, truth is... the game was rigged from the start
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,275
There is nothing that would have 'fixed' my life, the way I have ended up is inevitable.
However to reduce some of the suffering I have been through I could have
1. Not have done microsuction on my ears as this damaged them even more
2. Not taken medications wrongly prescribed by doctors
3. Not go to the sixth form college that I went to, as it caused me trauma and I was unable to do much after it in terms of being productive.
 
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DarkWolf

DarkWolf

Worthless Loser
Mar 29, 2021
201
1. Found out about SN earlier
2. Hung myself when I lived alone
3. Planned jumping off BH better
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
10,476
1. "N"
2. "SN"
3. Shotgun
 
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SuicidallyCurious

Enlightened
Dec 20, 2020
1,715
Go to israel and the city of London at 5 years old
Kill the people responsible for allowing the US economy to be looted
 
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fufa

fufa

I don't know what I am.
Mar 26, 2021
29
Can't think of anything that would change this outcome, maybe I should've gone to an Ivy League school or something.
 
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Myono93

Member
May 2, 2021
22
1. Made honest efforts to socialize with people when I was younger. I didn't and my social skills atrophied. I became the local weirdo.

2. Prioritize money over job satisfaction. Now I hate my job and don't have much money.

3. Realize that psychiatry and mental health professionals charge a lot to do a whole lot of nothing. I bought a lot of their BS focused too much on my feelings and mood. I needed to hear that no one cares and to work harder back when it could have mattered.
 
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Pauperpills

Pauperpills

Lord of Missed Opportunities
May 5, 2021
15
I regret not doing these:
1. Taking life seriously
2. Moving at my own pace
3. Planning ahead

But now it's too late and the only way to make it better is to:
1. Ctb
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
1. Going to a different school.
2. Not having wasted my time on some toxic love relationships.
3. Never stop exercising.
 
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ShadowSide

Member
Feb 28, 2021
5
1. Not dropping out of uni, twice!
2. Not wasting my time on toxic relationships (any kind)
3. Worked out more and took care of my physical and mental health.

I'm only 33 but I feel like I can never catch up or turn things around...
 
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lonerclown666

Mage
Dec 1, 2020
540
Dont leaved school
Dont wasted time
Suicide earlier
 
RedHarlequin

RedHarlequin

Mage
Jul 8, 2018
530
Absolutely nothing could have changed the outcome. I don't even know what is worse. Knowing that you've made some wrong decisions that fucked everything up or knowing that you were fucked from the start.
 
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MyOwnWorstEnemy

Member
Apr 23, 2021
58
Still birth, not survived premature birth, actually ctb when I first attempted at 14.
 
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DarkWolf

DarkWolf

Worthless Loser
Mar 29, 2021
201
Have you been to BH?
I sure have. I sat on the ledge with my legs dangling over the edge arguing with the police. I think I was there about 4 or 5 hrs. Was light when I arrived pitch black dark when I was dragged away.
 
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Beachedwhale

Mage
Mar 3, 2021
526
I sure have. I sat on the ledge with my legs dangling over the edge arguing with the police. I think I was there about 4 or 5 hrs. Was light when I arrived pitch black dark when I was dragged away.
How come the police were there?
 
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deathgal

Member
May 4, 2021
19
God there's loads of things I wished a could have done differently. My mum is always saying I'm so brainy i wasted my life by not going to uni. Or going for job promotions. Having a normal relationship with a nice guy and kids etc. Hindsight's a great thing.
 
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DarkWolf

DarkWolf

Worthless Loser
Mar 29, 2021
201
Yep police were a bunch of cunts too. Kept giving me scripted pro life BS even suggested I lived for a family who hurt me as a child. They pinned me to the fucking ground,torn my jeans, bruised/cut my thigh and dragged me away. Locked me up for a day in a psych ward and then hospital sent me out even tho I was homeless. In fact actually the doctor and psychiatrists were also cunts. 3 of the most unkind judgemental tossers I've ever met. Don't know why they are in their job it certainly ain't to help people!!!!
In just over 24 hrs I lost my dog suddenly to heart attack, got treated like a mad rabid animal, held against my will and ended up homeless.
 
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mk01

mk01

Member
Nov 18, 2021
21
I'm not responsible for the way my life has turned out, which makes it even harder cause I have always tried my best to do the right thing and have to live with the people who ruined it and just continue to live theirs carelessly.
I guess I regret wasting so much of my energy hating my family and trying to get them to care about ruining my life. I also regret being nice for the sake of keeping the peace and letting people take advantage of me. I also regret not ctb sooner and tormenting myself for this long.
 
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blueclover_.

blueclover_.

Better Never to Have Been: 2006, David Benatar
Oct 11, 2021
668
Strangle myself with the umbilical cord.
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,569
(1)taking myself to the dentist
(2)not taking a paracetamol overdose as that caused my stomach lining to be damaged causes me all kinds of pain now i can't drink alcohol without being sick because of it
(3)not getting addicted to weed
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
Never have been conceived. End of!
 
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Nanako

Nanako

Experienced
Dec 24, 2018
289
I could've taken better care of myself, it hurts to know that part of my pain is undeniably due to my own fault.
 
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needingpeace24

needingpeace24

Member
Oct 19, 2021
52
Think about questions like these nightly

I would've corrected my misplaced loyalty and focused more on my health

I believe that is the only thing that could've prevented me from being here.
 
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