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popcorn1234

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Despite knowing that I have no way to change my circumstances, there's a part of me that wants someone to tell me there's another way (aka I don't have to die).

I'm not sure if it's my survival instinct or me just being hopeful.
 
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UnrulyNightmare

UnrulyNightmare

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I think a lot of us struggle with that.
There's a difference between wanting to die and not wanting to be alive the way you are right now. Especially when it's circumstances driving you to desperation, no matter how unchangable they seem/are, it can be tough to realise both are true. To want out of your current situation/life but at the same time want the reasons that drive you to end it to be gone so you might want to be alive again.
The one doesn't rule out the other imo. Wishing for a bearable life, however that would look for you, is a pretty human thing I think.
 
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unluckysadness

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Naïve hope : exactly how I feel
 
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Nightfoot

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Any kind of hope is good. It's something to hold onto.
 
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