Dec 10, 2020
I want to end it all. I have the perfect opportunity to do so, I'm ordering my presents for Christmas and I'm trying to fight back this opportunity to buy a rope to hang myself. I have no friends and no sense of continuing anymore, I'm in my last year of high school but I just don't care. There is this huge tree in my yard, perfect for doing myself away. I have therapy and medicine, nothing is helping. I'm exhausted all the time, I just want to relax and play a game or read, but I just can't. I've been having thoughts of starving myself and locking myself in my room, I have this feeling of torturing myself; and, then on Christmas day I would hang. I want to eliminate this urge. I want to live, but yet, I don't. I can't get out of this mindset that life is meaningless. I'm not asking for any pity, I just want some semblance of help. Please.


Mar 22, 2020
Finishing high school? Damn, you're so young.
Still, it's your decision and it's okay if you really wanna CTB.
I'm so sorry you're through so much trouble. I wish I could help you.
Anyway, best wishes for you and hope you find peace!


Jul 15, 2020
I'm sorry that you're so troubled right now and seem in of urgency of relief.
Please feel welcome here. :heart: :hug: