My Will to Live is Being Strangled.

[ConfuseTHEneck]

I want to end it all. I have the perfect opportunity to do so, I'm ordering my presents for Christmas and I'm trying to fight back this opportunity to buy a rope to hang myself. I have no friends and no sense of continuing anymore, I'm in my last year of high school but I just don't care. There is this huge tree in my yard, perfect for doing myself away. I have therapy and medicine, nothing is helping. I'm exhausted all the time, I just want to relax and play a game or read, but I just can't. I've been having thoughts of starving myself and locking myself in my room, I have this feeling of torturing myself; and, then on Christmas day I would hang. I want to eliminate this urge. I want to live, but yet, I don't. I can't get out of this mindset that life is meaningless. I'm not asking for any pity, I just want some semblance of help. Please.

 

[WornOutLife]

Finishing high school? Damn, you're so young.
Still, it's your decision and it's okay if you really wanna CTB.
I'm so sorry you're through so much trouble. I wish I could help you.
Anyway, best wishes for you and hope you find peace!

 

[CoalmineCanary]

I'm sorry that you're so troubled right now and seem in of urgency of relief.
Please feel welcome here.