My suicide ideation due to trauma

[Excentricqueer]

What happened that really traumatized me and is prompting me to ideate suicide and self harm are these guys I knew that sexually harassed and pressured me. Matthew who sexually harassed and pressured me since we were schoolmates in high school, he was over 18 and I was 17 and 18 years ok old he sexually harassed me pressuring me to send him nude photos and videos of myself and to show him my breasts and let him grab and touch them. I only did it because I wanted him to like me and please him and because he pressured me to do it for him. Stephen from a Clifford Beers group I was in sexually harassed me over text talking about to me about breasts and saying sexual things to me over text that made me uncomfortable telling me to send him a picture of my breasts and talking to me saying that he wants to own my breasts. These traumatized experiences made me really depressed and these people made me feel stressed, violated, trapped, psychologically tormented, traumatized and drained and I feel like wanting to hurt and unalive myself because of all this trauma I'm dealing with that hurts so much. I feel like I want to unalive myself so I will no longer be in pain, so my pain will be gone.

 

[GirlNoor]

I can relate to you as a woman, we are so pressured into being sexual. It's people like these guys who make me hate men so badly. They wonder why too. I'm glad my boyfriend is a good man otherwise I'd see no hope for men.

 

[Excentricqueer]

I can relate to you as a woman, we are so pressured into being sexual. It's people like these guys who make me hate men so badly. They wonder why too. I'm glad my boyfriend is a good man otherwise I'd see no hope for men.

Thanks for telling me that I feel that way too glad to find someone I relate too