My stupid ass couldn’t go through w it hahaahaha

[iwashere]

Yea i'm fucking stupid it almost worked i don't even know why i just opened the door i felt my heart beating so fast and i don't know i got kinda light headed i should've taken more advil i just left the car and i laid down on the floor literally as i was opening the door i asked myself why tf did i do that i went right back in the car but i guess i didn't realize i opened my trunk too and i laid down in my car for awhile and i called a few friends and now my friend is coming now im scared that i fucked up my brain i'm just so pissed i'm probably doing to try again w even more charcoal i should've taken the sleeping pills earlier im just so pissed right now because i don't want to go back home and refil the bucket and go another fucking hour waiting for the fire to go out i'm just so fucking pissed and stupid i don't even know why i did that i felt it working i was so lightheaded i don't know im just so mad so i guess we'll see if im a stupid fucking vegetable tomorrow because i can't do anything right!!!! thanks for everybody's support and help im sorry i couldn't go through w it im just so pissed right now


i know ive posted this like three times im just lazy to retype a diff story every time just thought id update you guys

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm sorry you didn't get the outcome you we were hoping for.
I hope you don't have any permanent damage from the attempt.

 

[iwashere]

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I'm sorry you didn't get the outcome you we were hoping for.
I hope you don't have any permanent damage from the attempt.

ehhh i hope so too. i feel fine rn but im not sure if its something that will show up later or whatever. i'm prob going to try again tomorrow or something

 

[rainieday06]

Yea i'm fucking stupid it almost worked i don't even know why i just opened the door i felt my heart beating so fast and i don't know i got kinda light headed i should've taken more advil i just left the car and i laid down on the floor literally as i was opening the door i asked myself why tf did i do that i went right back in the car but i guess i didn't realize i opened my trunk too and i laid down in my car for awhile and i called a few friends and now my friend is coming now im scared that i fucked up my brain i'm just so pissed i'm probably doing to try again w even more charcoal i should've taken the sleeping pills earlier im just so pissed right now because i don't want to go back home and refil the bucket and go another fucking hour waiting for the fire to go out i'm just so fucking pissed and stupid i don't even know why i did that i felt it working i was so lightheaded i don't know im just so mad so i guess we'll see if im a stupid fucking vegetable tomorrow because i can't do anything right!!!! thanks for everybody's support and help im sorry i couldn't go through w it im just so pissed right now


i know ive posted this like three times im just lazy to retype a diff story every time just thought id update you guys

Im sorry things didnt work out how you wanted them to. I tried to overdose on aspirin one time and it didnt work. I ended up getting sick and throwing everything up and my ears rang for SO long.

 

[bigballsniqqa]

Yea i'm fucking stupid it almost worked i don't even know why i just opened the door i felt my heart beating so fast and i don't know i got kinda light headed i should've taken more advil i just left the car and i laid down on the floor literally as i was opening the door i asked myself why tf did i do that i went right back in the car but i guess i didn't realize i opened my trunk too and i laid down in my car for awhile and i called a few friends and now my friend is coming now im scared that i fucked up my brain i'm just so pissed i'm probably doing to try again w even more charcoal i should've taken the sleeping pills earlier im just so pissed right now because i don't want to go back home and refil the bucket and go another fucking hour waiting for the fire to go out i'm just so fucking pissed and stupid i don't even know why i did that i felt it working i was so lightheaded i don't know im just so mad so i guess we'll see if im a stupid fucking vegetable tomorrow because i can't do anything right!!!! thanks for everybody's support and help im sorry i couldn't go through w it im just so pissed right now


i know ive posted this like three times im just lazy to retype a diff story every time just thought id update you guys

not to be insensitive, but how did u arrange ur setup and what did you do, i wanna use charcoal as a method too

 

[iwashere]

Im sorry things didnt work out how you wanted them to. I tried to overdose on aspirin one time and it didnt work. I ended up getting sick and throwing everything up and my ears rang for SO long.

omg i'm so sir tht sounds awful. my ears were ringing for a bit afterwards and i stayed dizzy for about 10 minutes after. i might try again tomorrow

not to be insensitive, but how did u arrange ur setup and what did you do, i wanna use charcoal as a method too

hi, i'm not sure if you have enough points to view my profile but i actually posted earlier my plan/setup. i'll try to see if i can link it or something. my advice is to take a lot of advil beforehand because what initiated me opening my car door was the discomfort of the heat in the car, dizziness, and heart racing

 

[frayed]

discomfort of the heat in the car

It's probably because of the small space

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Be kind to yourself, and thanks for sharing this. I'm sorry for what happened and what brought you here. I received my SN recently and this made me realise how real it all is. The finality of what we are planning, and that it is not easy. All the best to you, sending love.