I am 24 - for starters and live in the UK.. But honestly ive felt this way since I was 13, being told by people around me constantly stupid things like "it'll get better" & "dont give up" but ive just felt like theres this gigantic void in my life right now, where i feel like i just dont belong here, i see my friends and people around me who have jobs and children and stuff like that and im just HERE.. no job no prospects going forward, just trying to get by... and i just feel like im failing.. i feel as though as i dont have like an actual place on this planet... like there isnt much of a purpose... sure i have a degree which was good for a little bit but then... it didnt get me into the job i wanted to do - and there were multiple options - but always ended up being some sort of knockback... like something always would happen to stop it from coming true.. and yeah.. to be honest ive carried a lot of trauma too, when i was 14 i was groomed online by a 30 year old man... which fucked me up mentally as well, and its just something iv carried into adulthood... i know a lot of this probably is incoherrent or whatever, but theres a glimpse into my stupid life..... Im very close to ctb.... and yeah...
WELCOME my good friend.
The loving and VERY supportive family here are AWESOME!
Hugs to you,
Walter
The loving and VERY supportive family here are AWESOME!
Hugs to you,
Walter
