Story My story with depression and self destructive tendencies

[depressedlittleboy]

Since I was a teenager at 14 I struggled with low self esteem, a distorted self image and no thick skin especially since I was cyberbullied it really hurt and damaged me. I hated myself and couldn't accept myself and I enjoyed hurting myself, I enjoyed stabbing myself with pens and pencils. My depression and self destructive tendencies got even worse after high school and has stayed the same since. I think I have bpd too because I displayed some signs of it in the past and still display some signs of it now. I'm a trans man now I very recently discovered I'm a trans man and that I've been a closeted trans man my whole life because of the gender dysphoria I've felt and experienced since 9. I want to be evaluated for bpd and I want to find a therapist that specializes in lgbtq and autism. Even as a trans man I'm still struggling to love and accept myself and am still struggling with hating myself because of my past and still struggling with my self destructive tendencies.

 

[Unbelonging]

I'm sorry that you have gone through all of this, it isn't your fault. I see you're new here, so welcome to this forum. I understand how some of your struggles feel since I've gone through some of the same things, and I hope things get better for you soon. I hope you find peace, no matter which way you choose to do so <3

 

[depressedlittleboy]

I'm sorry that you have gone through all of this, it isn't your fault. I see you're new here, so welcome to this forum. I understand how some of your struggles feel since I've gone through some of the same things, and I hope things get better for you soon. I hope you find peace, no matter which way you choose to do so <3

I'm sorry that you have gone through all of this, it isn't your fault. I see you're new here, so welcome to this forum. I understand how some of your struggles feel since I've gone through some of the same things, and I hope things get better for you soon. I hope you find peace, no matter which way you choose to do so <3

Thank you for being supportive of me and wishing me the best and telling me that Im not alone I really appreciate it

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really dreadful what you've been through, I find it so horrible how humans create so much suffering in this cruel world. But anyway I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.