Leavesfromthevine
Untreated Trauma
- Nov 23, 2023
- 339
Over the past few months I've learned to just embrace every feeling I have. It leads to very strong emotions whether good or bad. Obviously the bad emotions have overpowered any possible good ones otherwise I wouldn't be here. I suppose you could say that's when I fully gave up on life and let my fate be decided.
Why would I do this? I got tired of fighting and hiding how I really felt. It allowed me to express myself better which is why I can appear overly negative or open minded on here.
Would I recommend doing this? Absolutely not, I just have not fight left in me and wanted to ctb anyway. It might help you finally overcome SI but it can also make life so much worse until you can ctb.
Has it helped me? The only thing it helped was me overcome SI and fully accept/prepare for my death no matter what method.
Did it make my suicidal thoughts worse? No, not at all. My suicidal thoughts were already extremely bad.
Possible consequences? From my experience you'll most likely lose any friends or family that want to be around you. People will start to be concerned about you due to a change in attitude towards everything. It is very possible doing this could end you up in a psych ward, unemployed or kicked out of where you live if you don't live alone.
This was just my experience you can feel free to share your experience if you've done something similar. If you have questions feel free to ask.
Why would I do this? I got tired of fighting and hiding how I really felt. It allowed me to express myself better which is why I can appear overly negative or open minded on here.
Would I recommend doing this? Absolutely not, I just have not fight left in me and wanted to ctb anyway. It might help you finally overcome SI but it can also make life so much worse until you can ctb.
Has it helped me? The only thing it helped was me overcome SI and fully accept/prepare for my death no matter what method.
Did it make my suicidal thoughts worse? No, not at all. My suicidal thoughts were already extremely bad.
Possible consequences? From my experience you'll most likely lose any friends or family that want to be around you. People will start to be concerned about you due to a change in attitude towards everything. It is very possible doing this could end you up in a psych ward, unemployed or kicked out of where you live if you don't live alone.
This was just my experience you can feel free to share your experience if you've done something similar. If you have questions feel free to ask.
