findingpeace08
Member
- Aug 6, 2026
- 8
So I loved reading about people life's story, and it made me feel better, so i wanted to do the same.
I'm 18 years old. Throught my childhood I was a radical optimist, even though i suffered bullying, and never really had close friends to enjoy life with, I just studied, played videogames, and sometimes hang out with some people.
When I was 9, my OCD started, it was slowly as it corrupt me
At 14 It was when my radical optimism view of life came to an end, and I started to question it. Since then my hatred towards life just increase it.
At 16, it was my first attempt, I was on ecitalopram and I ate 50 pills of it. Nothing really happened. My parents treated it more like and teenage drama than a real thing
At 17, I almost had my second attempt, with SN, i hsd everything needed, but the courage to CTB
Now i'm 18, and I can't stand life, i really believe life is 75% pain and 25% pleasure to all humans. Independent of your context, i see that every human suffers a lot. In two weeks hopefully I will have the courage to CTB
And that's it, I want to thank this community which through out these years really made me feel understood, and the mods that make it work
Hope we all find peace and happiness, wherever that are.
I'm 18 years old. Throught my childhood I was a radical optimist, even though i suffered bullying, and never really had close friends to enjoy life with, I just studied, played videogames, and sometimes hang out with some people.
When I was 9, my OCD started, it was slowly as it corrupt me
At 14 It was when my radical optimism view of life came to an end, and I started to question it. Since then my hatred towards life just increase it.
At 16, it was my first attempt, I was on ecitalopram and I ate 50 pills of it. Nothing really happened. My parents treated it more like and teenage drama than a real thing
At 17, I almost had my second attempt, with SN, i hsd everything needed, but the courage to CTB
Now i'm 18, and I can't stand life, i really believe life is 75% pain and 25% pleasure to all humans. Independent of your context, i see that every human suffers a lot. In two weeks hopefully I will have the courage to CTB
And that's it, I want to thank this community which through out these years really made me feel understood, and the mods that make it work
Hope we all find peace and happiness, wherever that are.
