Venting My soul is so tired.

[CravingPeace]

I think I just finished typing up my note. It is an effort to explain my reasoning for CTB - I never learned how to love my self, and have lost the chance of gaining the ability to do so. I have tried for years and years, but my efforts are futile. I was designed to lack the ability of self love, and this is the source of my suffering.

I want to cry, but I can't. I am exhausted of all energy.

This is how every day ends. I wallow in the suffering I have endured through the day, and shudder in fear that I will have to go through it all over again tomorrow.

I'm going to bed (not ctb yet lol). Goodnight ya'll.

 

[hereornot]

My born

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of it all, I also feel so tired of suffering, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[CravingPeace]

I understand feeling so tired of it all, I also feel so tired of suffering, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

I feel that once you are aware that life consists of more suffering, you are destined to end up where we are. Any intelligent human could see the reasoning of wanting to CTB when suffering and death are the only promises in life.