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Ww42

Ww42

Student
Feb 24, 2024
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Tried in 2022 with SN from IC. I wanted to donate my organs when i died so i took like half the bag of SN, dissolved it in water and drank it, then called police in another state so itd take a while for them to triangulate my location
Tasted like the atlantic ocean but i had fasted and took antacids and was out like a light in 10 minutes. Only symptom i had was a fast heart rate that was very palpable in my chest but i felt extremelt sleepy and relaxed despite that so all-in-all it was a very calm death feeling. Felt like when you sleep on new sheets, just overwhelming calm and ready to die. Then I woke up in the ER, doctor said i was moments away from death if they didnt have methylene blue ready in their lab. I was for sure that half the bag wouldve done me in, but i was stupid, not really thinking in the moment, i know better now, my next attempt my organs will CTB with me. Anyways, sp02 was like 50% they said they were shocked i lived. Said i was the most cyanotic patient theyd encountered. Spent the next week peeing green and being sad i failed. Back here to try again. Any questions or comments are welcome. Thanks for having me back everyone
 
xmissellax

xmissellax

Need My Peace
Feb 25, 2024
113
Hi, thank you for sharing your experience. I've heard IC is down now. Not sure how to PM on here but would love to PM and if you could help me seeing if the SN I got is from a reliable source, thank you.
 
Ww42

Ww42

Student
Feb 24, 2024
124
Hi, thank you for sharing your experience. I've heard IC is down now. Not sure how to PM on here but would love to PM and if you could help me seeing if the SN I got is from a reliable source, thank you.
Yeah i can PM u
Hi, thank you for sharing your experience. I've heard IC is down now. Not sure how to PM on here but would love to PM and if you could help me seeing if the SN I got is from a reliable source, thank you.
Says u limit who can view ur profile so you may need to change ur settings so i can pm
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,326
Thanks for sharing your experience. Must have been hard to wake up in ER.
Did you take antiemetic ?
 
xmissellax

xmissellax

Need My Peace
Feb 25, 2024
113
Yeah i can PM u

Says u limit who can view ur profile so you may need to change ur settings so i can pm
Hey, I made my account yesterday so not sure if I'm too new yet. It's not allowing me to start any new conversations, so could I message you in a day or so? My settings are all good - think it will unlock my account then!
 
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DreamEnd

Enlightened
Aug 4, 2022
1,859
How did you wake up there? Did someone call ER for you or did you do it?
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
8,534
Thanks for sharing your experience with us. :heart:
 
The Mute Viking

The Mute Viking

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Oct 10, 2018
190
I'm terribly that you were not able to find peace.
Thank you for your invaluable information however.

much love,
 
Ww42

Ww42

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Feb 24, 2024
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DreamEnd

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Aug 4, 2022
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I think the bag was 100g so i took a good 50g

Nope, just some antacids

i did feel slightly nauseated but nothing extreme to warrant taking an antiemetic
Did someone find you or you called? I don't understand how they got to you to take you to the ER

any organ damage?
 
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dggtscccvfd

Arcanist
Jun 1, 2023
465
Tried in 2022 with SN from IC. I wanted to donate my organs when i died so i took like half the bag of SN, dissolved it in water and drank it, then called police in another state so itd take a while for them to triangulate my location
Tasted like the atlantic ocean but i had fasted and took antacids and was out like a light in 10 minutes. Only symptom i had was a fast heart rate that was very palpable in my chest but i felt extremelt sleepy and relaxed despite that so all-in-all it was a very calm death feeling. Felt like when you sleep on new sheets, just overwhelming calm and ready to die. Then I woke up in the ER, doctor said i was moments away from death if they didnt have methylene blue ready in their lab. I was for sure that half the bag wouldve done me in, but i was stupid, not really thinking in the moment, i know better now, my next attempt my organs will CTB with me. Anyways, sp02 was like 50% they said they were shocked i lived. Said i was the most cyanotic patient theyd encountered. Spent the next week peeing green and being sad i failed. Back here to try again. Any questions or comments are welcome. Thanks for having me back everyone
Were you found when you were unconscious?
 
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kawaiiphantom

kawaiiphantom

I gently open the door
Feb 1, 2024
303
Did someone find you or you called? I don't understand how they got to you to take you to the ER

any organ damage?
In the post they said they called police from another state so that it would take a while to find their location
 
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dggtscccvfd

Arcanist
Jun 1, 2023
465
4.I.2.Must.Die

4.I.2.Must.Die

Up with life I cannot put 🙅 ✋ Where's the exit 🔚
Nov 8, 2023
1,796
I called cops so i could donate my organs when i died and they got to me too quick
You're pretty sure that's why you survived then? You said it was dosing before. BTW you've been invited into a telegram group.
 
Old Friend

Old Friend

Sleep well, Airstrip One.
Sep 24, 2023
475
In the post they said they called police from another state so that it would take a while to find their location

Police in another state will still be able to trace the call. Then all they'll do is contact the local police in the relavent state and leave them to it. It probably delayed the response by minutes at most.
 
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losing hope

Specialist
Apr 27, 2022
358
Had you fasted prior? if so how long for?
 
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itsover090

Member
Feb 1, 2024
55
I'm always confused why some pass out in 10 minutes and others take up to 30...
 
Goku Black

Goku Black

Global Mod
Jun 5, 2023
3,135
I'm always confused why some pass out in 10 minutes and others take up to 30...
Possibly a delay in the release of Nitric oxide.
Felt like when you sleep on new sheets, just overwhelming calm and ready to die. Then I woke up in the ER, doctor said i was moments away from death if they didnt have methylene blue ready in their lab. I was for sure that half the bag wouldve done me in, but i was stupid, not really thinking in the moment, i know better now, my next attempt my organs will CTB with me.
So, from my understanding

1. The cops you called probably notified your local police station once they had your location

2. I'm assuming they found you unconscious at this point and rushed off to ER

3. You could've still died if they didn't have Methlyne blue on hand, enough of it that is, to save you.

Simply incredible, I think what saved you was the cops finding you in time to give you a little bit of a chance for survive once ER got involved and treated you and yet some people, in fact, many would've died despite aggressive resuscitation.

Did you have cardiac arrest at any point during this?
 
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BorderlineChellery

BorderlineChellery

I was never meant for this life...
Feb 19, 2024
66
Was there any sort of lasting damage from the failed attempt?
 
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PrisonPlanetBreak

Member
Oct 22, 2023
91
I am so sorry to read that the plan did not go your way, when all you tried to do is one last good deed. If you don't mind me asking, will you be sent to the ward now? That's my biggest fear for failing SN... having to call the ambulance, and then getting sent to the ward possibly.​
 
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Ww42

Ww42

Student
Feb 24, 2024
124
Possibly a delay in the release of Nitric oxide.

So, from my understanding

1. The cops you called probably notified your local police station once they had your location

2. I'm assuming they found you unconscious at this point and rushed off to ER

3. You could've still died if they didn't have Methlyne blue on hand, enough of it that is, to save you.

Simply incredible, I think what saved you was the cops finding you in time to give you a little bit of a chance for survive once ER got involved and treated you and yet some people, in fact, many would've died despite aggressive resuscitation.

Did you have cardiac arrest at any point during this?
Doctor never said anything about cardiac arrest so im gonna assume i did not but i really dont know since i never looked up my chart from the hospital to find out just what happened that night
You're pretty sure that's why you survived then? You said it was dosing before. BTW you've been invited into a telegram group.
I chalk it up to the dosage not being enough to cause enough methemoglobin in my blood to kill me of anoxic brain injury fast enough. Because im a DNR on my medical chart and if i had brain death id be taken off life support but somehow my body lived long enough for police to find my location and get local paramedics on the scene and ship me to the ER for the antidote of methylene blue
Was there any sort of lasting damage from the failed attempt?
Not that i know of, i do have heart palpitations throughout the day now, but i can still do everything i could before
Had you fasted prior? if so how long for?
I fasted for about 12 hours beforehand
That was very generous of you, too generous I'd say. Be selfish, think of yourself, it's your CTB, there's no need to donate your organs.

Interestingly, organ donation is possible after SN death though so it was reasonable of you to try:
Unfortunate lesson learned that next time i will be keeping my organs next time. My need to CTB overweighs any last good deeds anymore.
So was it the SN Purity that made your attempt fail

So was it the SN Purity that made your attempt fail?
Possibly? I got it from IC before he got caught and it said it was like 98 or 99% pure
 
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Goku Black

Goku Black

Global Mod
Jun 5, 2023
3,135
I chalk it up to the dosage not being enough to cause enough methemoglobin in my blood to kill me of anoxic brain injury fast enough.
Or the cops found you fast enough in order to prevent things getting to such a point.

Not that i know of, i do have heart palpitations throughout the day now, but i can still do everything i could before
How bad are they, just for the sake of comparison. Do you take Beta-blockers for those, does your rhythm get out of place sometimes?
 

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