My SN came in, I finally feel some relief

[fayth2567]

Hi everyone,
My SN came in, it's a really small bottle about 100g. So it would make about 4 glasses. I feel such relief that I can ctb whenever I want now. It feels so amazing, it feels good to be in control of my life.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I received this same one on Saturday. I feel relieved but go through intense waves of guilt, and the anxiety is just a different flavor now. Before, I was anxious about not having a way out. Now, I'm anxious about leaving my loved ones. I don't know what that means…but I'm so glad to have it before it's inaccessible.

Edit: I would black out the company's name on that first picture. We're not allowed to post sources here.

 

[jodes2]

Congratulations. It's just a shame SN death isn't as peaceful as H or N

 

[fayth2567]

I received this same one on Saturday. I feel relieved but go through intense waves of guilt, and the anxiety is just a different flavor now. Before, I was anxious about not having a way out. Now, I'm anxious about leaving my loved ones. I don't know what that means…but I'm so glad to have it before it's inaccessible.

I think it means you have people who you care about and care about you still. Its rough with the guilt

Congratulations. It's just a shame SN death isn't as peaceful as H or N

whats H?

I received this same one on Saturday. I feel relieved but go through intense waves of guilt, and the anxiety is just a different flavor now. Before, I was anxious about not having a way out. Now, I'm anxious about leaving my loved ones. I don't know what that means…but I'm so glad to have it before it's inaccessible.

Edit: I would black out the company's name on that first picture. We're not allowed to post sources here.

I just deleted it

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I think it means you have people who you care about and care about you still. Its rough with the guilt

whats H?

Definitely, I'm super lucky. Also feel super trapped because of it. How are you feeling?

 

[resolutory]

Ooh, is that what it looks like? I'm thinking about getting some myself soon. Congratulations!!

 

[BipolarExpress]

@fayth2567 Pretty sure H is heroin.

Hi everyone,
My SN came in, it's a really small bottle about 100g. So it would make about 4 glasses. I feel such relief that I can ctb whenever I want now. It feels so amazing, it feels good to be in control of my life.
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Knowing that you can leave anytime is such a relief. That's how I felt when my SN arrived last month.

 

[makethepainstop]

Hi everyone,
My SN came in, it's a really small bottle about 100g. So it would make about 4 glasses. I feel such relief that I can ctb whenever I want now. It feels so amazing, it feels good to be in control of my life.
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Isn't it the most wonderful feeling of freedom. You can checkout anytime you wish, and there is nothing in the known universe that can stop you.(Make sure that you will not be discovered the time comes). Is is the most wonderful feeling to know that we have the ultimate control over our wretched lives.That control makes me laugh at all of life's terrible problems! When my sn arrived I was transported into ecstasy. I was quietly in my room rubbing my hands and positively cackling with glee. The people around me were so very laughable. Them condemned to a life of suffering, while I have by my wisdom, found the key. Well my much love to you, but be very sure before you make an commitment.

 

[NoHorizon]

I'm glad having it to hand has given you some relief. I ordered mine yesterday and am looking forward to (hopefully) having that same feeling of comfort knowing that there's a way out if it gets too much.

 

[Willto]

I have mine. A relief, but also a burden. I know that I'll have to CTB soon, but SI is hard to overcome.

 

[outrider567]

Hi everyone,
My SN came in, it's a really small bottle about 100g. So it would make about 4 glasses. I feel such relief that I can ctb whenever I want now. It feels so amazing, it feels good to be in control of my life.
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Yes, same feeling I had when I got my Nitrogen tank

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel so relieved at having a way to finally free yourself from this life at a time of your own choosing. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Papilio_polyxenes]

I'm a pretty emotionally repressed person, but I will feel satisfied (if not elated) when I have my chosen method in hand.

With SN and the antiemetic, I can depart at any time or place. I've put several important decisions on hold until I acquire everything that I need.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yeah, I know the feeling. It is such a relief to have something so close to hand when the time comes. Congrats!

 

[Raven2]

@fayth2567 would it be okay for me to PM for your SN source.
I've got IC as a source but it doesnt come in a bottle like yours.

 

[fayth2567]

@fayth2567 would it be okay for me to PM for your SN source.
I've got IC as a source but it doesnt come in a bottle like yours.

yeah you can pm me

 

[freeziepop98]

nice, im otw there as soon as i reach 20 posts lol

 

[MissingThyme]

Congrats on getting your order in!

It really is such a relief to have some control over a situation.
@fayth2567, sorry to double post, but I am in the same boat as fairydust and am spooked about powder versus pill given context in another thread. Can I also PM you? I understand if not.

 

[freeziepop98]

hey, could someone PM me with a source to SN?