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she

one day at a time
Apr 9, 2023
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My SN arrived today from CCS! There's something really strange, yet relieving, about having the poison that I know is going to kill me sitting on my bedroom dresser. I haven't been able to stop staring at it. I need to begin getting things in order because I know that it won't be very long before I finally CTB. But it's here, for whenever I'm ready to take it. I'm so relieved that I'll get to die on my own terms. If anyone has any questions, feel free to AMA.
 
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uniqueusername39

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happy for you! i do have an important question. is that pfp your photo?
 
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I understand why you would feel so relieved at having the option of SN, I think that those who managed to get it in a world where it's becoming more and more restricted certainly are so fortunate. I wish you the best with your plans.
 
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My SN arrived today from CCS! There's something really strange, yet relieving, about having the poison that I know is going to kill me sitting on my bedroom dresser. I haven't been able to stop staring at it. I need to begin getting things in order because I know that it won't be very long before I finally CTB. But it's here, for whenever I'm ready to take it. I'm so relieved that I'll get to die on my own terms. If anyone has any questions, feel free to AMA.
I am still waiting for mine to ship as I ordered yesterday. Also, my card wasn't charged for some reason even though I got the receipt.... How long did it take for yours to deliver? I live in the Midwest, so I am hoping it delivers by Tuesday as I have to be out of my apartment by then.
 
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My SN arrived today from CCS! There's something really strange, yet relieving, about having the poison that I know is going to kill me sitting on my bedroom dresser. I haven't been able to stop staring at it. I need to begin getting things in order because I know that it won't be very long before I finally CTB. But it's here, for whenever I'm ready to take it. I'm so relieved that I'll get to die on my own terms. If anyone has any questions, feel free to AMA.
Best of luck!
 
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I wish I could relate rip. I also wish that I could get this kind of relieve simply by just owning it but it is hard to get here :/

I do wish you all the best and I am so glad that you feel better now <3
 
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Apr 18, 2023
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My SN arrived today from CCS! There's something really strange, yet relieving, about having the poison that I know is going to kill me sitting on my bedroom dresser. I haven't been able to stop staring at it. I need to begin getting things in order because I know that it won't be very long before I finally CTB. But it's here, for whenever I'm ready to take it. I'm so relieved that I'll get to die on my own terms. If anyone has any questions, feel free to AMA.
I have a few questions. I Found two websites that have the abbreviations CCS that sells sn. one starts with colonial and the other starts with consolidated. which one did you use? And what dosage is lethal? Is it in liquid form or powder form? I want to know what to expect.
 
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she

one day at a time
Apr 9, 2023
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happy for you! i do have an important question. is that pfp your photo?
Thanks! It's not my photo, just a random photo I found online. I decided against using my own photos on this site to maintain my anonymity. I love otters and I thought this one was super cute. :heart:
I understand why you would feel so relieved at having the option of SN, I think that those who managed to get it in a world where it's becoming more and more restricted certainly are so fortunate. I wish you the best with your plans.
Thank you so much for your well wishes. With how scary things have been getting for me, it's definitely a weight off of my shoulders, knowing that I'll be able to CTB once I'm ready. It's seemingly becoming more and more difficult to obtain nowadays, so I'm very glad I was able to purchase some for myself. I feel very lucky.
I am still waiting for mine to ship as I ordered yesterday. Also, my card wasn't charged for some reason even though I got the receipt.... How long did it take for yours to deliver? I live in the Midwest, so I am hoping it delivers by Tuesday as I have to be out of my apartment by then.
I placed my order on April 28th, and it arrived yesterday May 4th, so it only took 6 days for my order to arrive. I'm wishing you all the best.
I have a few questions. I Found two websites that have the abbreviations CCS that sells sn. one starts with colonial and the other starts with consolidated. which one did you use? And what dosage is lethal? Is it in liquid form or powder form? I want to know what to expect.
Please private message me, so we can discuss more there.
 
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Buddha.chris

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Mar 25, 2023
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I'm glad you have found a peaceful exit away from this cruel and evil world im sorry you had to resort to this as the last option this society makes us feel so much worse I hope your preparation goes according to your need I can't wait for the day i also have my exit near my bedroom dresser as well.
 
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Can someone please pm me the site? pretty pretty please?
 

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