Hi I wanted to discuss my situation in hope of gaining some sort of advice or help so I'm a 23 year old male from Malta (It's within Europe) and currently I'm my mom's carer because she's sick and old and I get an allowance for that but once my mom passes away I'm most likely going to end up homeless...
Yes, I've tried getting jobs before and working but it always ends up in failure no matter what, I suffer from anxiety, depression, ocd and possible add, now my depression alone makes me unmotivated, feel like a zombie and even common chores are a mountainous task for me and I'm not kidding, and my anxiety constantly gives me panic attacks when I've tried working I managed to get certain jobs but couldn't even maintain them I'm also a bit short-tempered sometimes and I don't like to be shouted at and ordered around like some wageslave
As for education most of my life I skipped school and Ik I fucked up by that but my mom who also has depression couldn't give me the support and I'm not gonna paint my mom as an angel because she abused and neglected me a lot as a kid, my whole family are your typical narcissistic mentally fucked up type... my father and his side of the family abandoned me at birth (He's a junkie who prefers cocaine over his kids from different women who mind you are also either junkies or fucked up people)... I'm also dyslexic so learning in general is a bitch for me I prefer to learn by muscle memory or doing the task
I've taken SSRIs and changed psychiatrists, had counselling by different people but nothing helps, I had quetiapine, risperadol, fluvoxamine, I've tried venlafaxine (Horrible SSRI btw) and many more
Anyways I clearly can't work and here depression and such aren't considered a disability I mean if you tried h*nging or j*mping yeah they will lock your ass and sedate you and throw you into the looney bin... I had a certain plan to gain social assistance but it's very difficult to get and mind you it barely pays, but I would be satisfied with getting it and applying for social housing so I can leave and live on my own within my safe space and peace
What's your opinion or advice?
JUST to be clear I'M NOT asking for money or Idk to rob a bank xD I'm saying this so it doesn't get taken down or someone twists my words against me I'm opening up and being sincere because I don't know what to do anymore... I'm constantly in fear of my future... please help
Yes, I've tried getting jobs before and working but it always ends up in failure no matter what, I suffer from anxiety, depression, ocd and possible add, now my depression alone makes me unmotivated, feel like a zombie and even common chores are a mountainous task for me and I'm not kidding, and my anxiety constantly gives me panic attacks when I've tried working I managed to get certain jobs but couldn't even maintain them I'm also a bit short-tempered sometimes and I don't like to be shouted at and ordered around like some wageslave
As for education most of my life I skipped school and Ik I fucked up by that but my mom who also has depression couldn't give me the support and I'm not gonna paint my mom as an angel because she abused and neglected me a lot as a kid, my whole family are your typical narcissistic mentally fucked up type... my father and his side of the family abandoned me at birth (He's a junkie who prefers cocaine over his kids from different women who mind you are also either junkies or fucked up people)... I'm also dyslexic so learning in general is a bitch for me I prefer to learn by muscle memory or doing the task
I've taken SSRIs and changed psychiatrists, had counselling by different people but nothing helps, I had quetiapine, risperadol, fluvoxamine, I've tried venlafaxine (Horrible SSRI btw) and many more
Anyways I clearly can't work and here depression and such aren't considered a disability I mean if you tried h*nging or j*mping yeah they will lock your ass and sedate you and throw you into the looney bin... I had a certain plan to gain social assistance but it's very difficult to get and mind you it barely pays, but I would be satisfied with getting it and applying for social housing so I can leave and live on my own within my safe space and peace
What's your opinion or advice?
JUST to be clear I'M NOT asking for money or Idk to rob a bank xD I'm saying this so it doesn't get taken down or someone twists my words against me I'm opening up and being sincere because I don't know what to do anymore... I'm constantly in fear of my future... please help
