Venting My sister cut me off

[orcapythia]

She told me tonight she was cutting me off until I become a better person. I know I'm not a bad person. In a way I saw it coming because she's been avoiding me for a while but it's still really painful. We always had a very close relationship, basically being each others best friends. I feel like it's partially because now she's found 'normal' people to hang out with. She's has practically no support needs so it was inevitable she would outgrow me I guess. She was always always there when no one else was. We did everything together. I was about to impulsively hang myself earlier and this feels like God is telling me to finish it. She has lacked a lot of empathy for me lately... saying I don't have it bad like she's blind to my suffering, though she's seen me in my toughest moments. She saw my last attempt. She knows how isolated my life is. I get the feeling she doesn't see me as a human now, I wish I could see what I look like to her. It'd probably be the same way regular people see me. I'm fighting the urge to cut off people that know her as well in case they bring her up or I look crazy to them. How do I even proceed ?

 

[sakakap]

I'm so sorry :((

 

[whybother2002]

Oh my god. That sounds so painful. But I'm glad you realize something and I hope you keep that in mind forever: you're not a bad person. It's not because your sister doesn't care about your suffering that it isn't valid. It is and you deserve love and attention. Don't cut off the people around her. Yes, they might bring her up and make you uncomfortable, but they also turn out to be much more interesting than you initially thought when she's not around. You also have this forum ready to listen 24/7. Much love to you.

 

[StoicPizza]

Exact same thing right now. Got kicked out of my older sisters immaculate house for a few mistakes I made. No crimes. Didn't hurt anybody. Wish I wasn't being discarded due to mental health. I see no future if not living there

 

[fromange]

Hugs.

 

[soulchaser_]

Cutting them off would mean a fresh start, people come and go. Your suffering isn't a crime at all.
Like 2 years ago my ex broke up with me due to my issues, throughout the whole relationship he lied that my issues didn't affect him at all and that he was happy to try to help me. I guess that's quite similar. It worsened my mental health a lot, it makes you feel like you have no place that'll accept you. it's hard to pretend you're okay all the time just to make sure people around you feel good.
My advice for you is to look for people who genuinely care for you deeply, who would tell you when it's all too much and when they need space. Much love to you. People come and go, it's okay, you just have to stay with the right ones.

 

[ifihadnever]

I feel your pain. My sister abandoned me at my worse, no communication, nothing. Tried to speak to her about it but she said she didn't want to talk about it. I've no idea why she did it. But left me with the biggest burden complex. That was 3 years ago....its got a bit easier this year. But the pain still runs deep. I'm sorry this is happening to you

 

[neurotic]

I'd say your best bet would be to act as respectful as you can, even if it hurts, for her and her decision. The alternative, hurting yourself, cutting off more friends to get away from her further, might not be the right decision. I'd give it some more time.

For her to cut you off like that, after being so close, is shocking. I'm really sorry that happened to you. A lot of people frankly just are not equipped to deal with the mentally ill, and it sounds like she's done all she could. Any way you look at it, whether she's in the wrong or not, the only way to realistically move forward is to respect her and continue trying your best every day. I'm positive she still loves you and sees you as her brother, she wouldn't have done everything she's already done if she didn't feel that way, and those feeling don't change over night. This may be what's best for both of you for the time being. This is just my perspective, and what I'd do in your situation. I hope you'll take care.

-- I apologize, I didn't realize this was way back in October lol I hope you're doing well