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Mustkeyknow

Mustkeyknow

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Feb 8, 2020
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It's been about three months since my impulse ridden suicide attempt and even though I'm not "better" in any way, I definitely don't feel as crazy as I did that night. I still want to CTB though. Life sucks. There are good days and then there are bad days. The bad days overshadow the good ones by a long shot. It doesn't matter if I get better I'll always have this awful scars that remind me of this period in my life where I lost it all. I'm so embarrassed by them. How the fuck am i supposed to talk to them to a potential new friend, or a potential new lover? If anything they are just a reminder that I need to finish the job. My psychologist says they could mean I survived, but to survive what? Myself? That's just cray.

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faust

lost among the stars
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Hello, there are some things you can do about this. You can make a tattoo (really!) which will hide your scars and will look like it has to be like that.
This is how you can be sure you don't have to worry about appearance. Do you like tattoos?
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Hello, there are some things you can do about this. You can make a tattoo (really!) which will hide your scars and will look like it has to be like that.
This is how you can be sure you don't have to worry about appearance. Do you like tattoos?
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Oh wow, those look really lovely. I'm definitely gonna look into tattooing them as soon as they heal. Thanks! Saving those pictures for inspiration!
 
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the box is empty

Sometimes the fall kills you. Sometimes you fly.
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they're part of your story. it can be embarrassing at first but there are ways to hide them if you really wanted to. you can tattoo over them if you wanted to. If people have an issue with your scars it's their failings not yours.
 
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