Venting my razor is missing / tw sh ?

[princexhhn]

i woke up this morning and my razor is missing. Ive no idea if i misplaced it or what but im freaking out this is my only coping mechanism.. i just about had an anxiety attack and then it got worse when i realized i cant find my razor god i wanna sink into the soil this is the worst. tried finding another around the house to no luck. I still have my scissors but they cant make me bleed as easily as a razor would. I cut myself whenever i get attacks and ive sort of got a self harm addiction too so this is just making me wanna crawl into the darkest crevices of the earth. Its the only thing that ever makes me feel better or serves sort of as a distraction so i dont know what to do anymore. i hope i find it soon.