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Freedomm

Freedomm

Student
Aug 2, 2025
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When my time comes I will use an antacid - Maalox, an antiemetic - Metoclopramide.

I don't know the exact time when I can do this, but it will look like this:

8 hours of fasting

23:00 30 mg of Metoclopramide

23:30 4 Maalox tablets

00:00 25 Grams of SN in 50 ml of water, three glasses.

For now I collect all the ingredients and will wait for a convenient time.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
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Don't forget benzos as shown in the PPeH
 
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Freedomm

Freedomm

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Aug 2, 2025
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Don't forget benzos as shown in the PPeH
I won't use benzodiazepines. I think I can cope without them. The most important thing is to hold back the vomiting.
I plan to follow stan protocol, but without painkillers.
 
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unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
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I won't use benzodiazepines. I think I can cope without them. The most important thing is to hold back the vomiting.
I plan to follow stan protocol, but without painkillers.
Take care because SI is so strong. I wish you peace, whatever you decide 🙏
 
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darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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however you decide, I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering đź«‚:heart:
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.
 
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MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
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When my time comes I will use an antacid - Maalox, an antiemetic - Metoclopramide.

I don't know the exact time when I can do this, but it will look like this:

8 hours of fasting

23:00 30 mg of Metoclopramide

23:30 4 Maalox tablets

00:00 25 Grams of SN in 50 ml of water, three glasses.

For now I collect all the ingredients and will wait for a convenient time.
Did it work?
Don't forget benzos as shown in the PPeH
Forgive my ignorance, but what are "benzos" and how do I acquire them?
 
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Freedomm

Freedomm

Student
Aug 2, 2025
183
Did it work?

Forgive my ignorance, but what are "benzos" and how do I acquire them?
This is my protocol, I don't know if it will work. It was changed, metoclopramide caused unbearable side effects similar to withdrawal and bad trip. I will try to get ondansetron.
 
MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
475
This is my protocol, I don't know if it will work. It was changed, metoclopramide caused unbearable side effects similar to withdrawal and bad trip. I will try to get ondansetron.
I am sorry that you experienced that. This sounds very complicated. Apparently we have to have a complete understanding of pharmacology and chemistry to end our own lives.
 
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