My prof told us not to ctb after the exams

[xhelx]

To be fair, I never expected to hear anything like this in college but I'm not even surprised now.
Basically he told us about a student of his that tried to ctb, right after exams (I don't think he actually died but I'm not sure).
But yeah, dude knows. I'm strongly considering it and I know I'm not the only one. At this point I'm only not killing myself to...prove something i guess? That I can make it through exam season without attempting? I'm about to give this college an actual kill count.
I used to be a *gifted kid* and now I'm struggling to even pass my exams. This college is sucking my soul and basically ruining my life. Can't even get a job because I need 100% attendance in some classes. Any free time means failing even more exams. Please don't get the idea that I don't want to study and now I'm just whining about it (yes, I struggle with motivation too, but that's not the main thing). If I want to study, too bad. No courses or anything. The exam has to be written in the same exact same way some prof has said once 4 months ago.
If only I could get a gun, I would shoot myself mid exam. I hate this college with a burning passion. If only I had my own money, I would drop out right now (but with how things are going I highly doubt I'm even going to graduate)
Please, if I kill myself and someone irl finds this post, please print it and tape it on my casket. Start an official college kill count too. Thank you.

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I feel you. If I had money of my own, lots of money, I would have left college a long time ago. I hate university with a burning passion too. I don't know how I made it this far in line.
A professor of mine never brought up suicide after an exam but he did the whole "your grade is not a reflection of you as a person" type of speech following our first exam, this was a Calculus course, and it didn't really raise my spirits at all.

 

[xhelx]

I feel you. If I had money of my own, lots of money, I would have left college a long time ago. I hate university with a burning passion too. I don't know how I made it this far in line.
A professor of mine never brought up suicide after an exam but he did the whole "your grade is not a reflection of you as a person" type of speech following our first exam, this was a Calculus course, and it didn't really raise my spirits at all.

I love how they are aware of how fking stressing college is, and yet some of them try their best to make it even worse. I've got enough questionable professors, but this one guy that literally told us he's trying to make all of us fail is the worst, literally psychopath behavior (not the one who brought this up, another guy)

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Depending on your school's course withdrawal deadline, you could just withdrawal from the course if it is stressing you out so much. Along with that, you also don't have to graduate straight away. It's not uncommon for some students to have to take an extra year to graduate in some cases. Have you tried seeing an academic advisor about this to see what they may have to say on the matter? Along with that, many colleges and universities also offer accessibility resources, counselling, psychotherapy, and so on, along with also usually having doctors and nurses working on campus as well. You could look into getting evaluated by a doctor at your school in order to get a disability certificate and then sign-up with your school's accessibility resources in order to get some accomadations.

 

[Dqope]

To be fair, I never expected to hear anything like this in college but I'm not even surprised now.
Basically he told us about a student of his that tried to ctb, right after exams (I don't think he actually died but I'm not sure).
But yeah, dude knows. I'm strongly considering it and I know I'm not the only one. At this point I'm only not killing myself to...prove something i guess? That I can make it through exam season without attempting? I'm about to give this college an actual kill count.
I used to be a *gifted kid* and now I'm struggling to even pass my exams. This college is sucking my soul and basically ruining my life. Can't even get a job because I need 100% attendance in some classes. Any free time means failing even more exams. Please don't get the idea that I don't want to study and now I'm just whining about it (yes, I struggle with motivation too, but that's not the main thing). If I want to study, too bad. No courses or anything. The exam has to be written in the same exact same way some prof has said once 4 months ago.
If only I could get a gun, I would shoot myself mid exam. I hate this college with a burning passion. If only I had my own money, I would drop out right now (but with how things are going I highly doubt I'm even going to graduate)
Please, if I kill myself and someone irl finds this post, please print it and tape it on my casket. Start an official college kill count too. Thank you.

Yea, I would say I am in the same boat as you. Tomorrow I have one exam and later down the line another. I have decided that I have been here for too long and spent to much contemplating how my death would affect my loved ones. On saturday I will grab the money I have saved up and go to the bank - put it on the card and buy SN and some other shit and do it as soon as I get it. I have my own room cuzz the roommate is almost never in my dorm and will go ahead through it.

I would say I was a gifted kid - had really good grades and even made a few thousands when I was programming and selling programs online. Now I am just tired. I dont know why I would try anymore. For my family? Even though I love them I have to question them why they brought me into the world? My mom could be a millionaire my now if she didnt have me. My dad dosent care about me and just wants to fuck up my mothers life so thats why what held me back for the longest of time - for the only thing she has left to leave this earth. But I just dont want to go on anymore. I am tired.

So at the end of the day I wont think about it anymore. Just as they were selfish enough to bring me into this world - even though I have a lot of things and I dont need anything - I will be selfish aswell to leave it on my accord.