Venting My problem with suicide

[Vacíø]

I often think of how ideal things could be from the real counterfactual, real, what it is; ideal, what it might've been. If anyone asked me whether I want to kill myself my response would be an absolute no, not because I don't want to kill myself, but rather because suicide is the closest thing to what I really wish to do, not the preferred desire itself, that thing being not to engage in or partake in any affair of this world, a world that constantly push us to wrestle with one another for scarce resources, whose essence is the oppression and the hyper-competition -a cruel fate- i.e not to have been born.
Death is redemption, Suicide is a solace but, Not to have been born is... Oh God!

 

[ctb_warrior]

I often think of how ideal things could be from the real counterfactual, real, what it is; ideal, what it might've been. If anyone asked me whether I want to kill myself my response would be an absolute no, not because I don't want to kill myself, but rather because suicide is the closest thing to what I really wish to do, not the preferred desire itself, that thing being not to engage in or partake in any affair of this world, a world that constantly push us to wrestle with one another for scarce resources, whose essence is the oppression and the hyper-competition -a cruel fate- i.e not to have been born.
Death is redemption, Suicide is a solace but, Not to have been born is... Oh God!

I could literally feel every word of yours. So true!! The world could have been so much better but.. the system is keeping us in the scarcity mindset to control the masses. That's the game elites are playing.