My Plan

[KudzuTrailblazer]

It's been a while since I talked here, but I just wanted to discuss my plan. Within the next year I plan on killing myself through SN. I'm going to the doctor's on the 14th of this month and I'm going to try to convince my primary care doctor to prescribe me some sort of antiemetic. Which given my history with migraines and vertigo, I don't think it'll be hard to convince them. I've given this a long thought, but within the year I'm giving myself I'd like to do as much to make amends with people and do things before I go out. If anyone in the comments have any suggestions on what I should do before I CTB?
Right now, I have a partner. He's great, but due to multiple reasons (not just me wanting to not live) I think I'm going to break up with him soon.

I just don't know what to do with myself anymore as I have just given up entirely. I'm not sure if I'll post again, I might on the day I do it to say my last goodbyes to everyone and thank everyone for the help, but in the end I don't know. You may treat this as my last post. Thank you all.

 

[Goosechan]

I hope the time you'll have left, however long that may end up being, will be fullfilling and healing in a way! There must be a lot of tough times ahead too, like an impending breakup. I don't think I have any advice, but know that there's support to be found here for whatever you might still go through

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope that you find peace.

 

[HenryHenriksen_6E]

If there's something I would recommend doing before dying, I'd say it's sitting down in an elevator. It sounds stupid, but it was mildly entertaining when I did that a short while ago. I realized I had never actually sat down in an elevator before, so I thought this is a small joy I could share with others. I believe having tiny and dumb things on a bucket list, and doing random things you'd never do adds a form of fulfillment. That's my case, although it might not apply to you. Just some simple things, for some simple joy.