My plan is going to take forever

[Doctors HATE them]

So I've posted my plan before but it basically involves a few years of school all while isolating from friends and pretending to be ok. The end goal is to be a vet tech and take N. I'm not sure if I can wait that long though.
I tried stabbing my throat before but I just couldn't do it and either way it takes too long to bleed out. Lots of people live in my house so I need something quick that I can do in the short periods where I'm the only one home. We don't have a gun and even if we did the neighbors would hear so that's not an option either.
Does anyone have any suggestions that involve going out peacefully (that way my SI doesn't stop me) and that can be done quickly?

 

[GasMonkey]

SCBA

 

[MidnightDream]

There's definitely a lot of work involved in becoming a vet tech, and I can imagine it might be quite a difficult route to take just to be able to ctb at the end of it.
I'm sure you already know this, but it's also not guaranteed that becoming a vet tech would grant you access to N.. So all that time, work and effort could ultimately be wasted.
Have you considered SN?

 

[Doctors HATE them]

There's definitely a lot of work involved in becoming a vet tech, and I can imagine it might be quite a difficult route to take just to be able to ctb at the end of it.
I'm sure you already know this, but it's also not guaranteed that becoming a vet tech would grant you access to N.. So all that time, work and effort could ultimately be wasted.
Have you considered SN?

I have, but I worry about surviving since I can't get benzos or antiemetics. Also I hear you turn blue and you need a long time for it to be irreversible so that would be a free pass to the hospital if I'm found.

I have, but I worry about surviving since I can't get benzos or antiemetics. Also I hear you turn blue and you need a long time for it to be irreversible so that would be a free pass to the hospital if I'm found.

Also, I worked at a vet clinic in the past and I enjoyed it so I can buy time just by working. The main problem is really the school aspect.

 

[jodes2]

So I've posted my plan before but it basically involves a few years of school all while isolating from friends and pretending to be ok. The end goal is to be a vet tech and take N. I'm not sure if I can wait that long though.
I tried stabbing my throat before but I just couldn't do it and either way it takes too long to bleed out. Lots of people live in my house so I need something quick that I can do in the short periods where I'm the only one home. We don't have a gun and even if we did the neighbors would hear so that's not an option either.
Does anyone have any suggestions that involve going out peacefully (that way my SI doesn't stop me) and that can be done quickly?

I'm glad you're going to give life a chance! Don't isolate yourself too much, it won't help you feel better!

SN is quite quick. Partial is very quick if you can do it right. I hope you don't though, we'll miss you

 

[FuneralCry]

N does sound like the most ideal and preferable method but I do understand wishing to leave so desperately. I think that all anyone can do is to look at the method resources on this site and decide what is best for themselves. I believe that what is the best method depends on what is able to be accessed.

Unfortunately suicide really is so unnecessarily difficult in this world that we live in, and is especially difficult in that type of situation that you mentioned. The most easily accessible methods for me are hanging and drowning but yet they both sound so horrible. I certainly hate the fact how suicide can be this hard for us but I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Doctors HATE them]

I'm glad you're going to give life a chance! Don't isolate yourself too much, it won't help you feel better!

SN is quite quick. Partial is very quick if you can do it right. I hope you don't though, we'll miss you

Not getting better is actually the goal. Hopefully isolating does two things: make my acquaintances (I have no friends lol) and family hate or dislike me, reducing the impact of my death and also lessen my SI.

 

[jodes2]

Not getting better is actually the goal. Hopefully isolating does two things: make my acquaintances (I have no friends lol) and family hate or dislike me, reducing the impact of my death and also lessen my SI.

But you could so easily get better then?? I know you've had enough of things, but you seem close enough to recovery for it to at least be tempting?? Why sabotage things??