BipolarGuy
Enlightened
- Aug 6, 2020
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So my plan in detail, or at least as far as I have thought, is this:
- Find a source to obtain 'N'.
I don't trust C as the purity of his product has been drawn into serious question.
I also don't want to buy from A because he has a reputation for ghosting people, plus in any case I don't fancy drinking a solution designed for injection - absolutely disgusting!
- I may buy SN too.
It can be purchased very cheaply and easily.
I would only plan on taking a little bit, perhaps just to speed things up, or 'make sure'.
2 things concern me though:
1. headaches and discomfort that I wouldn't otherwise have
2. Increased possibility of vomiting, possibly throwing the entire plan out the window
- While waiting for delivery:
1. Clean my place and start packing, to make it slightly easier for whoever empties my place
2. Draft an e-mail to individuals and organisations who would need to know of my death, including reference numbers etc where appropriate (passport office, DVLA, police, health service, car finance company, etc).
3. Draft a note to everybody, as my final words.
4. As far as I can, make arrangements for after I die. This includes giving the solicitor enough info to continue taking action against the NHS when I'm gone, write a cheap DIY will and register it, etc.
- I'M NOT SURE WHETHER I WILL DO THIS OR NOT.
Accessing help from the NHS has been a nightmare, it has felt like they've been playing games with my life, and so I MAY explain in my e-mail to organisations that "now it's my turn to play a game".
I'm CONSIDERING making a website on which the location of my body is given by the solutions of some extremely complicated mathematical problems.
I have a degree in maths myself, and I would construct very complicated mathematical problems spanning several areas, from differential equations to geometry, and algebra to advanced calculus and number theory.
The website wouldn't have the answers build within it either, so the police (or whoever) couldn't cheat by just going to the host and asking to be let in the back door. It would just be a website showing the problems to be solved.
The problems would also be constructed in such a way that they couldn't just be put into a computer program such as Maple and solved numerically, somebody would have to sit there and work through it manually.
If I decide to do this, I would make my way somewhere to 'do it' that I have never been before, far away from where I live. I wouldn't do it in just one journey, but use various forms of transport, change clothes, etc, and actually 'do it' somewhere where a walker wouldn't just find me randomly.
- A few days before, maybe the day before, destroy one of my laptop or phone. Probably laptop.
- On the day:
1. Wake up, shower, get dressed.
2. Post all of my ID documents to a senior police officer at station headquarters, with a note explaining who I am (birth certificate, national insurance number card, passport, driving license).
3. Leave my house, and when away from the house I would upload the note to social media, then send the e-mails I would have drafted.
4. Phone off, battery out, so it's location cannot be traced and so nobody could call me. Dispose of.
5. Go to where ever I planned to do it (e.g. by taxi - I'd make the social media posts and e-mails while in the taxi if this is the case).
- Find a source to obtain 'N'.
I don't trust C as the purity of his product has been drawn into serious question.
I also don't want to buy from A because he has a reputation for ghosting people, plus in any case I don't fancy drinking a solution designed for injection - absolutely disgusting!
- I may buy SN too.
It can be purchased very cheaply and easily.
I would only plan on taking a little bit, perhaps just to speed things up, or 'make sure'.
2 things concern me though:
1. headaches and discomfort that I wouldn't otherwise have
2. Increased possibility of vomiting, possibly throwing the entire plan out the window
- While waiting for delivery:
1. Clean my place and start packing, to make it slightly easier for whoever empties my place
2. Draft an e-mail to individuals and organisations who would need to know of my death, including reference numbers etc where appropriate (passport office, DVLA, police, health service, car finance company, etc).
3. Draft a note to everybody, as my final words.
4. As far as I can, make arrangements for after I die. This includes giving the solicitor enough info to continue taking action against the NHS when I'm gone, write a cheap DIY will and register it, etc.
- I'M NOT SURE WHETHER I WILL DO THIS OR NOT.
Accessing help from the NHS has been a nightmare, it has felt like they've been playing games with my life, and so I MAY explain in my e-mail to organisations that "now it's my turn to play a game".
I'm CONSIDERING making a website on which the location of my body is given by the solutions of some extremely complicated mathematical problems.
I have a degree in maths myself, and I would construct very complicated mathematical problems spanning several areas, from differential equations to geometry, and algebra to advanced calculus and number theory.
The website wouldn't have the answers build within it either, so the police (or whoever) couldn't cheat by just going to the host and asking to be let in the back door. It would just be a website showing the problems to be solved.
The problems would also be constructed in such a way that they couldn't just be put into a computer program such as Maple and solved numerically, somebody would have to sit there and work through it manually.
If I decide to do this, I would make my way somewhere to 'do it' that I have never been before, far away from where I live. I wouldn't do it in just one journey, but use various forms of transport, change clothes, etc, and actually 'do it' somewhere where a walker wouldn't just find me randomly.
- A few days before, maybe the day before, destroy one of my laptop or phone. Probably laptop.
- On the day:
1. Wake up, shower, get dressed.
2. Post all of my ID documents to a senior police officer at station headquarters, with a note explaining who I am (birth certificate, national insurance number card, passport, driving license).
3. Leave my house, and when away from the house I would upload the note to social media, then send the e-mails I would have drafted.
4. Phone off, battery out, so it's location cannot be traced and so nobody could call me. Dispose of.
5. Go to where ever I planned to do it (e.g. by taxi - I'd make the social media posts and e-mails while in the taxi if this is the case).
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