Venting My perfect way to ctb

[sweetsweetsuicide]

I would love if I had a friend/boyfriend that was also suicidal, and for one day we just go on an adventure together and do whatever we like. We could spend all our money on everything we've ever wanted and have so much fun. I would want to do so many things that I've never gotten round to doing.
For example I'd want to go to a cat cafe or animal shelter to spend time with the animals, I'd want to Dye my hair, I want to go to a rave or party, and maybe I'd want to go get drunk somewhere and just hang out with people and so many other things.

I've also never had sex...("ಡωಡ") maybe I'd want to try that out before I kill myself.

Then once the day is over, we would both lay beside eachother in a forest/meadow and we would kill ourselves. I would want my last moments to be filled with good memories and to lay in the arms of someone special.

i know all of this is really cheesy but I genuinely would be so happy.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I would love if I had a friend/boyfriend that was also suicidal, and for one day we just go on an adventure together and do whatever we like. We could spend all our money on everything we've ever wanted and have so much fun. I would want to do so many things that I've never gotten round to doing.
For example I'd want to go to a cat cafe or animal shelter to spend time with the animals, I'd want to Dye my hair, I want to go to a rave or party, and maybe I'd want to go get drunk somewhere and just hang out with people and so many other things.

I've also never had sex...("ಡωಡ") maybe I'd want to try that out before I kill myself.

Then once the day is over, we would both lay beside eachother in a forest/meadow and we would kill ourselves. I would want my last moments to be filled with good memories and to lay in the arms of someone special.

i know all of this is really cheesy but I genuinely would be so happy.

What you wrote is not cheesy at all. There are a lot of similarities here in my perfect CTB. For me, I want to be in a woman's company. She doesn't need to act or be my girlfriend or have sex with me. All I want is to spend a day or two, doing whatever we want and having fun. And when the time comes, she doesn't even need to CTB with me. I just want her to be with me in those last moments while the SN is slowly draining my life away. To comfort me in my dying process.
I forgot to say, the age is not important, all that really matters to me is that she is kind, compassionate and nice a person to be with.

 

[Jadeith]

NGL, it's something i'd love to have during my final moments - someone holding me, someone i trust. Unfortunately such person does not exist. I do not trust easily (almost not at all) and the ones i might trust, would never agree to be a part, even if passive one, in my demise.

I would love if I had a friend/boyfriend that was also suicidal

Something tells me that IF you had a bf willing to share fun times with you, you'd be less suicidal and also probably you wouldn't want to for him to die.

 

[sweetsweetsuicide]

Something tells me that IF you had a bf willing to share fun times with you, you'd be less suicidal and also probably you wouldn't want to for him to die.

Honestly I think it would help me a bit, but it won't change how I feel.
I'm suicidal mostly because of something that happened to me as a child, and I still feel like I'm in that situation almost every day as if I'm reliving it. Having someone there to love me won't change what I go through but it would certainly make it feel better.

But maybe I would reconsider my suicide plan, idk. I've never had a boyfriend so I don't know what it's like

 

[58Alice85]

These kind of fantasies are common.
I also have one. I am an XY person but I have managed to transform and pull off the transgender thing perfectly.
Me and my lover both hate the normies.
The super awful weapons i designed are unleashed upon the world killing everyone, committing omnicide.
It is just me, my lover and God forever now with no one else.

 

[Jadeith]

But maybe I would reconsider my suicide plan, idk.

Of course i know nothing about your situation, what pushed you to look for means to kill yourself and what might push you back from this patch.
But, let me share vaguely a little story i witnessed - there is a person i know who, as a child, experienced one of the worst abuses known to mankind. That and further neglect from their "surroundings" led to severe mental problems, including but not limited to self harm and some (fortunately) failed attempts. At one point, this person met someone on-line - just another internet nobody but with a will to listen. Slowly they formed strange, non-sexual and even non-romantic connection that surprisingly well influenced mental stability of that person. That person became stable enough to live decent life, found a partner (someone other than this "listener") and got married a while ago. So, while you might consider yourself to be on a downward spiral towards doom because of what happened in your past, there are known circumstances that right person in one's life can change that.

The super awful weapons i designed are unleashed upon the world killing everyone, committing omnicide.

Now that would save me the trouble of killing myself. Very kind of you, thank you.

 

[Michelstaedter]

It sounds wonderful, just reading it is truly exciting, because my desire is to leave this world with someone who also wishes to leave this world, so we don't experience the heartbreak of not loving each other, of each of us taking different (and bitter) paths. In death, at least our love will remain "for eternity"—only death will have separated us, but it will also have left us together.

What you've written is so romantic that it moves me... But at the same time, it leaves me with a profound sadness because I'm aware that the chances of finding someone like that are 0.000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001%

 

[throwaway070806]

That would be a really nice way to spend the remaining time of your life before eventually CTBing. I've always wanted to make a friend who is empathic and yet has a pessimistic view on society. I have a close acquaintance of mine who is more lenient on his personal goals than backing up others. Naught is a friend to me. Maybe i'm autistic, neurotic, immature; maybe it's the social ring i've been welcomed with insults and tomatoes thrown at me. Everyone wants a friend who shares the same view on this ignorant society. I'd be looking forward to being acquaintances with you.