Before starting (i wished death a lot and i tried to die a lot , im a 20ys old man that is short , ugly,no personality for real, living in his own world(mind) alone)
In my case im gonna talk about driving
I have 2 years since i got my license
I' the first 6 months every thing was normal until i notice that i start spending
At the first its was scary but with time i got used to it and i start to like it
Its was so fun with music
Its was the only thing that i love and can help me with my depression and anxiety
Day after day i keep spending more and more and i reached the deadly stage
Going on so high speed pushing the car to its limits on normal roads
I don't slow down but i just go through and between the cars
Why ?
Because when im high speed doing deadly driving i cant think about anything,i cant feel anything
Its just so peaceful, im so close to die
U forget everything in this world
The moment ur driving at deadly speed
Ur in peaceful world u can't think u cant feel
The only thing that is protecting me from crashing is my luck
So the second my luck ends i will die
It may looks trash story but for me im happy to know the way im gonna die
It so sad when u just wanna go to other start screaming and crying saying i don't wanna die help me but u cant
U cant bc ur a "man" so ur supposed to be strong
Even if u say its okay do it i cant
When i was younger i didn't understand why people suicide
But i can understand them now
I tried to suicide before due to things...
For me im just alive when i do my deadly driving
Sadly when i run out of luck i will be dead
I hope i can smile before my soul gets out of my buddy
I at least i can prove that i was truly happy at that moment
I want to live
But not like that
I destroyed myself by my hands
i choose to die
I wish i can smile before i die
In my case im gonna talk about driving
I have 2 years since i got my license
I' the first 6 months every thing was normal until i notice that i start spending
At the first its was scary but with time i got used to it and i start to like it
Its was so fun with music
Its was the only thing that i love and can help me with my depression and anxiety
Day after day i keep spending more and more and i reached the deadly stage
Going on so high speed pushing the car to its limits on normal roads
I don't slow down but i just go through and between the cars
Why ?
Because when im high speed doing deadly driving i cant think about anything,i cant feel anything
Its just so peaceful, im so close to die
U forget everything in this world
The moment ur driving at deadly speed
Ur in peaceful world u can't think u cant feel
The only thing that is protecting me from crashing is my luck
So the second my luck ends i will die
It may looks trash story but for me im happy to know the way im gonna die
It so sad when u just wanna go to other start screaming and crying saying i don't wanna die help me but u cant
U cant bc ur a "man" so ur supposed to be strong
Even if u say its okay do it i cant
When i was younger i didn't understand why people suicide
But i can understand them now
I tried to suicide before due to things...
For me im just alive when i do my deadly driving
Sadly when i run out of luck i will be dead
I hope i can smile before my soul gets out of my buddy
I at least i can prove that i was truly happy at that moment
I want to live
But not like that
I destroyed myself by my hands
i choose to die
I wish i can smile before i die
