My Parents

[NPCaesar]

Ive made a similar post a long time ago, but I think that I need to ask for advice once again.
So basically, I left this forum for a long time, because I thought that I was rly doing better. But now look at me! Here Iam, at my lowest point once again!
To put it simple, I have the dearest and most loving parents a person can have, if it wasnt for them, I probably wouldnt be alive at this point in time and the last thing I want is to make them sad (especially if I ctbed, they both would never recover from that in their entire life). They rly are the best parental figures a human can have and Iam so so grateful for them and mad at myself for considering to throw my life away.
Sry if this post comes off as a bit weird, but idk how else to put it...

Can anybody give me advice?

 

[death_bed221]

Ive made a similar post a long time ago, but I think that I need to ask for advice once again.
So basically, I left this forum for a long time, because I thought that I was rly doing better. But now look at me! Here Iam, at my lowest point once again!
To put it simple, I have the dearest and most loving parents a person can have, if it wasnt for them, I probably wouldnt be alive at this point in time and the last thing I want is to make them sad (especially if I ctbed, they both would never recover from that in their entire life). They rly are the best parental figures a human can have and Iam so so grateful for them and mad at myself for considering to throw my life away.
Sry if this post comes off as a bit weird, but idk how else to put it...

Can anybody give me advice?

I am in the same place as you. My mother is the best person on this planet. I was bullied at work to the point of me self harming and quitting and now I am out of work. She told me that she loves me and I don't even have to work. I can live with her as long she is alive. She just wants me to feel ok. If I had any other mother, I would off myself years ago. I just cant do that to her. She doesn't deserve it. But I am in so much mental pain. Whatever I do, its bad

 

[LeavingThisHell]

Exactly the same situation here. But I really can't see anything else I can do other than to ctb, my mental health issues are just getting worse and worse and it has reached this ridiculous point where I cannot do almost anything a normal person does. I'm just rotting here, both mentally and physically (I've stopped taking care of my looks a long time ago).
It's just so horrible that life puts us in these cruel similar situations. I've written a note to them deeply apologizing for what I'll probably do in the next few weeks or months, but I'm aware that this is not enough.

 

[NonEssential]

I can relate, I've yet to ctb because I don't want to hurt my family. Although I feel like my empathy towards others regarding this is slowly declining.

 

[NPCaesar]

I am in the same place as you. My mother is the best person on this planet. I was bullied at work to the point of me self harming and quitting and now I am out of work. She told me that she loves me and I don't even have to work. I can live with her as long she is alive. She just wants me to feel ok. If I had any other mother, I would off myself years ago. I just cant do that to her. She doesn't deserve it. But I am in so much mental pain. Whatever I do, its bad

I can relate, my whole life ive been kicked to the ground, whenever I thought that Id get up, I immediately got kicked back down again. From my days in elementary school till highschool I was bullied, the girl I loved told me that she doesnt and that she doesnt want to do anything with me anymore, because "she doesnt want to give me false hope". Its easy to blame the people around me for my suffering, but honestly? I think its my fault, if you fail to rly socialse everywhere in life, it must be the fault of one self. Iam just so fed up with it all. If it werent for my parents I would certainly off myself.

I can relate, I've yet to ctb because I don't want to hurt my family. Although I feel like my empathy towards others regarding this is slowly declining.

I cant do that, my parents have given me so much in my life, it would be disrespectful from me to do smth like this to them, but idk how to continue all of this, Iam just sick of it all

Exactly the same situation here. But I really can't see anything else I can do other than to ctb, my mental health issues are just getting worse and worse and it has reached this ridiculous point where I cannot do almost anything a normal person does. I'm just rotting here, both mentally and physically (I've stopped taking care of my looks a long time ago).
It's just so horrible that life puts us in these cruel similar situations. I've written a note to them deeply apologizing for what I'll probably do in the next few weeks or months, but I'm aware that this is not enough.

Its true and other people out there get a free pass on everything, I just wish things would have gone different. I wish you good luck on your journey, I dont have the courage to do something similar to you