My parents could never understand

[Madao]

Imagine being a 6 year old. Crying, bitterly as you locked yourself in your room. Bruises all over your back and limbs from the belt your dad used on you (because you watched cartoons for a bit instead of memorizing an entire page of religious bullshit). Consoling yourself by promising that you will get payback on your parents when you get older...For all the times they hit you. For all the times they made fun of you. For all the time they forced you into a horrible religion school (in which, you also get beat the fuck out of). For all the times they forced you to stay inside the house because they did NOT want you to play. As the years go on, you slowly start forgetting about the promise as you learn to just shut yourself up in your room and dodge all the stress that comes from staying in your parents vicinity. There are times where you just want to die though. Car rides are a mess. You get 4.0 gpa, yet parents don't care, they never care when I do well. But they are the first to claw at me the moment I mess up. Not even out of love or to help me learn from mistakes, but to protect their own reputation. Years of this takes a toll on somebody.

I am now 18. My parents want me to practice their delusion of a religion, in fact they've been forcing me to "practice" all my life and I just went along pretending to practice because what else can I do. But lately, I'm just getting tired of it all. They threatened to send me to a religious school, where, yes, we get whipped. With this new potential drama, I am really in between running away and just living my own life (waaay more preferabble, maybe a whole lot less doable) or just ending it right here right now. My parents won't understand my trauma now, and they haven't understood it for the last 13 years or so. I guaruntee they won't feel guilt if I off myself, they never apologised or seen themselves in the wrong ever in my life. At the most, they'll find my dead body and just blame me. Heartless...truly heartless.

Sometimes I really do wish religion wasn't delusioin so that my parents will pay for the suffering they caused me, but sadly, no. Sorry for boring you with this long post.

 

[James34]

I am sorry that this terrible experience cursed you. Your parents are pure assholes based on what you've said and do not deserve nice things. I kind of hope a painful and miserable afterlife does exist for terrible people since that makes me feel good.

What would you say to them if you knew you could get away with saying it to their faces?

 

[Madao]

What would you say to them if you knew you could get away with saying it to their faces?

I will tell them exactly how much I suffered, one last time, and just like all the other times it won't do anything. Once I tell them that, I just cut contact and leave. I think that's what's best. No point in cussing them out or whatever, they are well aware of my suffering they are just too self rightous to change their ways.

OOOh, and get this: They use religion as an EXCUSE to abuse me. Lmfaoo. Yes religion says that you should respect your parents and all, but they twist it into "i can do whatever I want to you, and you have to take it and respect it". Beyond hope.

 

[FuneralCry]

That certainly is such a horrific situation, it especially disgusts me when people force
Iife here just to treat that person so terribly, I despise how humans create so much harm.

 

[James34]

I will tell them exactly how much I suffered, one last time, and just like all the other times it won't do anything. Once I tell them that, I just cut contact and leave. I think that's what's best. No point in cussing them out or whatever, they are well aware of my suffering they are just too self rightous to change their ways.

OOOh, and get this: They use religion as an EXCUSE to abuse me. Lmfaoo. Yes religion says that you should respect your parents and all, but they twist it into "i can do whatever I want to you, and you have to take it and respect it". Beyond hope.

It is probably for the best to call them out and just give complete radio silence. Heh, don't worry religion is almost always used to justify horrific behavior saying the "victim deserved it for x,y,z reason".