Venting My only birthday tradition

[baller]

for the past two years (and about to be three), my only tradition for my birthday is coming on this sub and sulking until it's midnight, then I tick off another year until i ctb, then cry myself to sleep

I'm an hour out from my birthday, and all i have is this sense of dread. I can't enjoy a moment of happiness because I suddenly just detatch myself from it, I keep feeling this sickening void and it really just sucks

I'm gonna be about two years away until i ctb, on this day and time. I dont think im gonna ctb for the same reasons as I decided 3 years ago now though. I'm not really that lonely anymore, I cut off bad people from my life, I've got passions I want to persue, but now, I'm probably gonna ctb because I cant stand the idea of living out the rest of my life. AI will take my job, my only passion, and I know its inevitable until I feel the same things that led me to making this plan of ctb in the first place.
Hope I'll be able to go through with it, survival instinct wont kick in I hope.

Birthday is in exactly an hour now, and I've got to honour my traditions.

 

[pedro3211]

for the past two years (and about to be three), my only tradition for my birthday is coming on this sub and sulking until it's midnight, then I tick off another year until i ctb, then cry myself to sleep

I'm an hour out from my birthday, and all i have is this sense of dread. I can't enjoy a moment of happiness because I suddenly just detatch myself from it, I keep feeling this sickening void and it really just sucks

I'm gonna be about two years away until i ctb, on this day and time. I dont think im gonna ctb for the same reasons as I decided 3 years ago now though. I'm not really that lonely anymore, I cut off bad people from my life, I've got passions I want to persue, but now, I'm probably gonna ctb because I cant stand the idea of living out the rest of my life. AI will take my job, my only passion, and I know its inevitable until I feel the same things that led me to making this plan of ctb in the first place.
Hope I'll be able to go through with it, survival instinct wont kick in I hope.

Birthday is in exactly an hour now, and I've got to honour my traditions.

Hope things get better for u man. I'm sorry things have been tough

 

[SASU-KE]

I guess it's just turned into your birthday. Sorry, your life is So difficult, but I have hope you have a good day today.