My mother told me I should just go ahead and kill myself and when I said it will hurt her more than me she said "don't worry about me I will be fine in 5-6 years" so I guess there's nothing holding me back. I was gonna shoot myself cos my fathers handgun isn't under a lock but I haven't shot a gun in a while and I'm scared I won't do it right. Gonna wait to get my SN and then go to a hotel. I'm jealous of ppl who acc have caring parents.
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Al_stargate
I was once a pretty angel
- Mar 4, 2022
- 747
Sorry to hear it. I also received subtle 'just get it over with' line from my mom several times. People only give a shit about themselves. My parents are in part guilty for my situation. It is what it is, at least I won't feel that bad when ctb. But don't do it to get back at anyone, they won't care at all.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,408
Some people can be very cruel, it is your life and your decision and only you know if leaving this world is the right thing for you, others have no say in it. I'm sorry that you are suffering so much and I wish you the best in whatever happens.
She couldn't say it seriously. I think she was just tired and said it with irritation. Mom can also be depressed.
Insomniac
𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
- May 21, 2021
- 1,357
It sounds like your mom is done with life too.
BigG91
I'd rather be homeless with good health.
- Aug 21, 2021
- 191
My mom during an argument was like. " Suicide is your wish and many people do it "
I've been wanting to do it for 5 years. Attempted many times and failed. I won't do it to get back at anyone but I can't say I won't be glad that I hurt them
Whatever man, I wouldn't be in this situation if it wasn't for her. I'm here suffering cos 2 crazy ppl needed to get laid. Ffs
U don't know my mother, that woman is mentally ill but not depressed.
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onlyanimalsaregood
Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
- Mar 11, 2022
- 1,329
What a awful thing to say, especially from a mother. I'm sorry you have to hear that and I'm sorry that you hadn't an easy life because of her. I wish you the best.
jimmy7754
I just want to be myself again
- Dec 15, 2021
- 508
I have had the subtle "do what you gotta do" from my mom too… I'm so done but I don't know how to end it.. I feel stuck slaving away suffering at the mercy of my own existence on this planet.. my life isn't worth living..
Eeven though I don't condone that kind of response from your mother - there must be something that has gone seriously wrong in her life for her to act in that way.
...or else, I hope that there's a special place reserved for your mother in the 9th Circle of Hell....
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Kismet
life is pointless
- Feb 16, 2022
- 141
Did you and your mom get in an argument when this all happened? It sounds like some things were said out of anger or frustration and possibly isn't the first time it has came up?
Your mom is a fucking toxic bitch.
Is it possible she is just respecting your choice? A lot of people on here want people to respect their choice to die but when other people give permission, they get mad they don't "care" to fight them on their decision to die. Either way it's a horrible thing for someone in her role as your mother, and I'm sorry if that hurt you. Just giving another perspective..why do we on this forum demand the right to choose to die but then get offended when people who we hope care about us don't fight our wish?
I'm not offended. She isn't the type of support ppls choice to kill themselves. U don't know what u r talking about
Well you said that was the last thing holding you back. So your post made it seem like it hurt you and now you can kill yourself because your mom doesn't care..like that was the thing making you not do it
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 8,927
Man, that is really effed up. I'm so sorry that you had to be on the receiving end of something so horrible. I'm so thankful I had a wonderful mother.
Ashu
novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
- Nov 13, 2021
- 785
I can imagine finding this in some Indian scripture as a description of the human condition.
There always is. We're all victims of causes and circumstances beyond our control. There is no freewill, there is no guilt. Compassion is the only right and reasonable attitude.
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I never understood how people say that their mother cares for them. I never talked about anything to her because her response was just "okay" and then return to what she is doing.
Sometimes I felt like getting rejection and shame is better than indifference. Just something, even the slightest bit of emotion. I mostly just got anger.
So now I just hole myself off from the world slowly collecting more reasons to ctb. I really do have a miserable existence. My mother used to tell me to just kill myself when she was around, now it's probably the only thing that I will live up to now.
Sometimes I felt like getting rejection and shame is better than indifference. Just something, even the slightest bit of emotion. I mostly just got anger.
So now I just hole myself off from the world slowly collecting more reasons to ctb. I really do have a miserable existence. My mother used to tell me to just kill myself when she was around, now it's probably the only thing that I will live up to now.
gr1lledcheese
Student
- Dec 18, 2021
- 139
I'm sorry you had to hear that. I don't know your mom, but I hope she didn't mean it, and regrets saying that.
I've been suicidal a lot in my life, and one of the things I've learned is not to talk about it with my friends or family. It's a sure fire way to push them away from you. Initially they'll be sympathetic and consoling, but over time they'll grow tired of hearing it and lose all sympathy. I've been watching that series on Hulu, The Girl from Plainville, and I think what happened with her and her bf was that she got tired of hearing him talk about committing suicide and that's when she started encouraging him to go through with it. I think she was sympathetic at first. Just my take.
I've been suicidal a lot in my life, and one of the things I've learned is not to talk about it with my friends or family. It's a sure fire way to push them away from you. Initially they'll be sympathetic and consoling, but over time they'll grow tired of hearing it and lose all sympathy. I've been watching that series on Hulu, The Girl from Plainville, and I think what happened with her and her bf was that she got tired of hearing him talk about committing suicide and that's when she started encouraging him to go through with it. I think she was sympathetic at first. Just my take.
my mum threatened to call the police on me. Since then, I've been wishing she was in the Ukraine. I mean my friend's mum got out the Ukraine, and I would send my mother there. She is a witch.
I'm sorry yours said that. Jeez.
I'm sorry yours said that. Jeez.
well that's not it. I've been wanting to and tried to kill myself many times. But her saying that hurt me and yes I'll admit having the person who birthed me give me the okay might make my decision a bit easier. U r an asshole
NothingElseMatters
Warlock
- Mar 30, 2020
- 745
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Mage
- Jun 3, 2021
- 585
Hey I just joined this site and wanted to say your mom is being cruel. It is your choice, but she is being a really messed up person by saying she essentially doesn't care. My mom is kind of the same way and everyone in my life has used me and abandoned me. I get jealous of people who have loving caring parents too
Honestly if my mum was that chill about me going then I would be pretty happy. I've already made up my mind and there is no question that I won't go ahead with it.
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