cryvinglightning
it gets worse before it gets better.
- Oct 27, 2023
- 102
i don't even know if this should go here, but whatever. i just need to get it out of my chest and explain why it really upsets me.
i've had an eating disorder for basically my entire life. binge eating, then bulimia, then the two of them combined. i went to therapy for both of those but i'm still overweight and i've been like this for ages.
my mom hates it. despises it, even. she's always been obsessive about my weight, about how skinny she was at my age, about the clothes i wear and thew body i have, etc. i've been on diets since i was eight years old and ended up fucking my metabolism, so i've been going to a nutritionist to restore balance in my eating and she gave me a draining supplement.
it's not really medication, you don't need a prescription for it; it's like eyedrops for your mouth, it has natural ingredients and anyone can buy it. it helps with weight loss, but apparently it wasn't enough for my mom. so she went ahead and bought these pills and started giving them to me under the guise that they were the same supplement but in pill form.
these pills are technically for treating diabetes, but they also help with weight loss and are extremely good at doing so. but she didn't tell me what it was until i found out by myself and confronted her about it, and she got all defensive.
what upsets me the most out of all this, as if being given random shit without knowing wasn't enough, is that she refused multiple times to let me resume theray for my eating disorder and threw away the prescribed fluoxetine that i was given when i was actually being followed by psychiatrists. i don't even know what to do right now. does she really see giving me random medicine as the only solution to my so called "problem"? i feel so weird right now.
i've had an eating disorder for basically my entire life. binge eating, then bulimia, then the two of them combined. i went to therapy for both of those but i'm still overweight and i've been like this for ages.
my mom hates it. despises it, even. she's always been obsessive about my weight, about how skinny she was at my age, about the clothes i wear and thew body i have, etc. i've been on diets since i was eight years old and ended up fucking my metabolism, so i've been going to a nutritionist to restore balance in my eating and she gave me a draining supplement.
it's not really medication, you don't need a prescription for it; it's like eyedrops for your mouth, it has natural ingredients and anyone can buy it. it helps with weight loss, but apparently it wasn't enough for my mom. so she went ahead and bought these pills and started giving them to me under the guise that they were the same supplement but in pill form.
these pills are technically for treating diabetes, but they also help with weight loss and are extremely good at doing so. but she didn't tell me what it was until i found out by myself and confronted her about it, and she got all defensive.
what upsets me the most out of all this, as if being given random shit without knowing wasn't enough, is that she refused multiple times to let me resume theray for my eating disorder and threw away the prescribed fluoxetine that i was given when i was actually being followed by psychiatrists. i don't even know what to do right now. does she really see giving me random medicine as the only solution to my so called "problem"? i feel so weird right now.