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16thsatirist

16thsatirist

predisposition? kinda silly
May 31, 2025
27
a bit of a jumbled post, but if you've seen my other ones, you already know that's normal for me.

i'm gonna take the long way out,

i'll wait until after my birthday, i'm at least thankful enough that i'm getting a car.

i'll drive out somewhere, dunno where.

i'll enjoy seeing the scenery, stop by small shops, stop at parks, try new things. do as much as i can.

that'll probably be at least a little whiles worth of things for me to do.

then, i'll arrive at wherever seems fit. probably a park, somewhere pretty. i'll wait until it gets dark out to actually ctb.

i have a shotgun, so that'll be what i'll use (most likely?...i still need to do research. if i can find something i can take and then sleep, that'd be better.)

i have pets, so i'll make sure they have a good place to stay. i've been slowly writing a note over the course of ~2 years of how i've been feeling instead of writing just one piece of paper.

....i don't really have a good plan. basically, my method is either by gun or...whatever i can find. even in the darkest time of my life, my shitty planning skills and adhd are still here. woohoo.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Elementalist
May 10, 2025
853
however you decide
hope everything goes well for you
wish you the best 🫂:heart:
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
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Do you already have a shotgun? Have you ever shot one?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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