My method is blocked for now :(

[kyhoti]

After weeks of planning, one particular piece of my method is unavailable. There's a nationwide unavailability of this thing, as it is only made once a year. Once its gone, thats it for the year. The year's production run is happening right now, but more won't be available for weeks until the run is done.

I'm trying to remain calm, but this is pushing me towards rash behavior. As we all know, rash attempts tend towards the unsuccessful, so I'm doing alot of deep breathing, music and incense (& emotional eating) to keep the lid on desperation. My time for action is short enough as it is, without this added stress, as my money is running out. Once its gone, I will be at risk of losing my autonomy.

As I mentioned in another post, I'm not getting into specifics about my method until I have everything ready, to keep certain others from stopping me. Just needing to say this crap "out loud" to let off some of the pressure. Thanks to all for providing a safe place to vent.

 

[LifeQuitter]

You have me wondering what this stuff is now?

 

[kyhoti]

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG after venting about the production run, I did my normal OCDish search, AND I FOUND A SOURCE! I placed my order, fingers crossed that it goez through. I'm financially fucked now, as it was expensive, so fingers crossed.

As soon as it comex in, I'll post about the shitshow process of everything.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck!