My memory and cognition is really bad does anyone else have the same problem?

[Dr Iron Arc]

Yes I do. I heard this can be a symptom of depression so it makes sense. There are moments where I have insanely focused clarity which causes me to overthink things to a fault but most of the time my mind just feels like a foggy pile of mush that's also being assaulted by TV static which makes it really hard to think very hard...

I suspect it's due to all the alcohol drinking I used to do. I didn't have many brain cells in the first place and I killed too many. Part of why I also don't drink anymore.

 

[Kat!]

Yes. It could be many factors. I've been shooting guns for quite some time, I've handled lead irresponsibly, used to paint models in a non-ventilated room, and I took medication.
Out of all of these I'd say paint and medication have been the worst contributive factors.

 

[Weary Soul]

Years of phenibut and kratom abuse has left my with what feels like dementia. It's even scarier considering I'm not even 30 yet. I don't know if it's permanent by this point but I guess it doesn't matter considering looming CTB.

Someone on another site suggested I look into neuroplasticity.... and my occupational therapist suggested luminosity. Just suggestions, my particular cognitive dysfunction from a brain bleed did not seem to respond to either suggestion.

I hear you on the looming CTB, it is why I have not sought treatment for a torn ligament.

<3

 

[LastFlowers]

I often forget what I'm about to do mere seconds into doing it, it's like extreme short term memory loss and it has gotten a lot worse. The flip side is that my longer term memory is very intact to the point where it is actually hurtful that I seem to be the only one who hasn't forgotten certain memories...or when others have forgotten, my clear memory is called a sack of lies.

 

[Weary Soul]

I often forget what I'm about to do mere seconds into doing it, it's like extreme short term memory loss and it has gotten a lot worse. The flip side is that my longer term memory is very intact to the point where it is actually hurtful that I seem to be the only one who hasn't forgotten certain memories...or when others have forgotten, my clear memory is called a sack of lies.

Same for me.

<3

 

[Hopeindeath!]

A couple of months ago, I was driving at night through my neighborhood, and I forgot where I was. It only lasted a moment, but I wonder if it's a preview of what is coming.

 

[TheEndisNear121200]

I have brain fog almost all the time. I have a hard time concentrating and remembering things. I can't keep up with conversations anymore and can barely finish reading anything. I'm also super indecisive. It's so sad that I've ended up this way as I used to be congitively better in the past

 

[astro]

Honestly thank you for making this thread. Seeing people with similar issues makes me feel less alone. To answer your question: Yes, I have the same problem. My cognition is so bad that I'm unable to work even menial jobs. Tbh I didn't even know mental illness could decrease your functionality by so much... Two years ago, while I was already starting to get mentally ill, I was on track to becoming valedictorian and now I have to either let the state/ my family provide for me for the rest of my life or catch the bus...

 

[Buffy5120]

Honestly thank you for making this thread. Seeing people with similar issues makes me feel less alone. To answer your question: Yes, I have the same problem. My cognition is so bad that I'm unable to work even menial jobs. Tbh I didn't even know mental illness could decrease your functionality by so much... Two years ago, while I was already starting to get mentally ill, I was on track to becoming valedictorian and now I have to either let the state/ my family provide for me for the rest of my life or catch the bus...

Yup it really saddens me I wanted to become a lawyer I went to college for 1 year had to drop out my law professor even said I was made for this career now i cant even remember anything and feel like im a 24 year old trapped 80 year old's body both physically and mentally since i cant even walk now too (life loves kicking me in the ass i have such bad luck its insane if i told you all the illnesses that happened to me you would even say how is that possible) but yeah my functioning is really bad i just had to reread your message so theres that and oh yeah definitely no chance of me becoming a lawyer that field requires a lot of memorization the world needs to honestly be over im so tired of everything its the same with me i cant even hold a cashier job i even tried doordash and couldnt even do that

 

[Jblack]

For me, I often feel that all the medications I have been given over the years have caused my loss of memory. All the different antidepressant and antianxiety medications have left me pretty screwed up. The memory lapses along with really no feelings is extremely difficult to deal with. For anyone being given these myriad of drugs, they know the so called treatments really do very little and often leave you in a far worse state then where you started. Cognitive losses and a feeling of just numbness is not how a person should feel after therapy and medications.

 

[Buffy5120]

For me, I often feel that all the medications I have been given over the years have caused my loss of memory. All the different antidepressant and antianxiety medications have left me pretty screwed up. The memory lapses along with really no feelings is extremely difficult to deal with. For anyone being given these myriad of drugs, they know the so called treatments really do very little and often leave you in a far worse state then where you started. Cognitive losses and a feeling of just numbness is not how a person should feel after therapy and medications.

Same and I actually have the no feelings issue as well

Same. Especially short term memory. Takes minor distractions to forget about what I was doing or wanted to. Seldom bother with books anymore because I can't remember the page I read before. Shifting information from short term to long term memory is a disaster too and makes it near impossible to learn anything new.

I sometimes wonder if being caught in the moment is what makes it so hard to reflect on one's situation as a whole and break the cycle because one fails to see the bigger picture. Repetition of misery, not accumulation. Without a functioning memory one is forced into the same reaction every time. Taken to the extreme the following documentary illustrates what it's like. He can't ctb because he doesn't comprehend his situation beyond a few seconds and just jumps from one moment of consciousness to the next:

Yes thats why i need to ctb soon so I can still make decisions for myself :(

 

[Chemicalcastration20]

Yes I feel like I have dementia and I'm only 28. If anyone has ever had antidepressants in there life this could be the main reason behind it. They cause serious brain damage.. I was never the same again once I got involved with them.

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Last 20 years are a blur, everything before is like it happened 10 minutes ago.

 

[Xocoyotziin]

I feel like I'm constantly regressing
And my own mind is bullying the shit out of me for reasons I don't really understand
Abstract thought is literally emotionally painful for me so I've been slowly unlearning it, and I get insecure about that
A lot of it can probably be owed to isolation, or "isolation gone wrong", where instead of taking refuge in it it's just a place to stew in the same old bs where nothing good ever happens
I feel deeply wounded somehow and it's definitely affecting my cognition, but it's a delusional kind of wound that I think I could fix if I just got my head on straight and stopped indulging in vices and interactions that are antagonistic towards me.

 

[xLosthopex]

Yes! I'm convinced I've given myself brain damage from so many years of Anorexia and all my other mental illnesses, also been on so many different psych meds for the past 10 years so I feel like that has probably altered my brain in some way. I used to be super academic, was studying for a degree in law, now I can't even concentrate enough to read a fucking book

 

[Bauhaus]

I often forget what I'm about to do mere seconds into doing it, it's like extreme short term memory loss and it has gotten a lot worse. The flip side is that my longer term memory is very intact to the point where it is actually hurtful that I seem to be the only one who hasn't forgotten certain memories...or when others have forgotten, my clear memory is called a sack of lies.

So relatable. Problems with short/working memory and severe insomnia is the culprit.
In fact insomnia can be a warning sign of early stage dementia.
It starts with simple things like going to the kitchen to get some milk and when I'm in the kitchen I forgot what to do.
Or watching a TV episode or movie and you immediately forget what a character has just said. Now I often need to watch an episode more than once, first time is like getting the general idea what's it about and second time you try to pay more attention to the details. Also recalling names of well known actors is a problem.
Long term memory is also the opposite, I feel child like and often recall memories from childhood.

 

[Konjac]

I feel you, man. For me, the worse my mental health gets, the worse my memory gets.

And I mean, I'm on here, so you can probably imagine how bad my memory is rn hahah

 

[NightmareTour]

On edit: Funny story (well not so funny - kinda like wtf?) About 1 week after release from the hospital (craniotomy, coma, not supposed to survive), I told the occupational therapist that was visiting me that I was having serious short-term memory problems. She said, oh that is age related. I was so out of it, I did not think of a reply in time. But really - Prior to the brain bleed I was fine, had a remarkable memory, a high level job making good money, and not less than a week after release from the hospital I can't remember how to spell someone's name ?? How on earth is that age related in a couple of months??? It is horrific.)

This is also something I really relate to. I was very young when I had the disease that caused my brain damage so it couldn't really be blamed on age, so instead they just told me I was imagining it or it would go away. My family even said that my personality changed entirely after what happened, and that got ignored/written off too.

It seems like since there's not really any "cure" for a brain injury, doctors prefer to just convince you to give up instead of having to provide long term treatment. Especially since at the time, they know that you're in a vulnerable state and won't put up much of a fight against it.

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I think I've been drinking too much lately and it's finally effecting my brain, somehow I'm feeling worse than I have been. It feels like I'm under water.

 

[Deleted member 94]

Yes! I'm convinced I've given myself brain damage from so many years of Anorexia and all my other mental illnesses, also been on so many different psych meds for the past 10 years so I feel like that has probably altered my brain in some way. I used to be super academic, was studying for a degree in law, now I can't even concentrate enough to read a fucking book

Brain needs nutrition to function well, lots of energy as well only available from the foods we eat.

 

[xLosthopex]

Brain needs nutrition to function well, lots of energy as well only available from the foods we eat.

Yeah for sure, no doubt I've done some kind of damage from this:(