Venting My life is ruined

[Failed.Angel]

It's all my fault, I have no extra energy to share more ty

 

[LukaParrot]

I think we all feel that way in some part of life.

Try to rest a little, sleep help a lot for me. Since you are venting, I believe you just want some peace, a little of relief..... i dont believe saying this but.... take a smoke, take a drink, then... sleep a little. We all need a break too. Hope you get better.

PS: Smoke is bad for you and drink is also bad, but they're cheap and worked when there was no meds to help.

 

[Failed.Angel]

I think we all feel that way in some part of life.

Try to rest a little, sleep help a lot for me. Since you are venting, I believe you just want some peace, a little of relief..... i dont believe saying this but.... take a smoke, take a drink, then... sleep a little. We all need a break too. Hope you get better.

PS: Smoke is bad for you and drink is also bad, but they're cheap and worked when there was no meds to help.

The time I had written the venting I had already drunk and smoke a lot, and they both terrible to our health and it doesn't really work anymore.
There was a time in my life I was good that I stopped using both and didn't come back. That felt wonderful, the first time I was really living life and the things I want to live felt like growing old with my ex girl and live a good life and do good in a place I love to live. My depression and overall mental issues were also at bay and I was recovering fast.

It is all gone now I am back to my shit life and city with no way to leave, no way to recover my relationship or fix anything else specially money wise and I drink and smoke again to forget my shit life,

Soon my time will come, planning on my CTB for second week of January can't deal any more with my failed existence

Thanks for your message))