Venting my life is genuinely crumbling

[immolation]

I really thought things were getting better for a while. But now I'm homeless and unemployed and my medicine runs out in like 5 days. Half the reason I wanted to stay alive was to try to fix my relationship with my parents but my mother is so far gone it's just irreparable, and my dad is struggling so much because he feels like he failed me, so it would be better for both of us if I just died. I promised my friend I'd take him to a movie on june 6th, and I have a psychiatrist appointment june 11th. I'll probably do it on june 12th but I need to find the time and space to test my method, because I don't have much privacy considering I've been couch surfing. It's a bit hard to give up all my aspirations but genuinely everything is stacked against me, so it's a disproportional amount of effort for a life I don't even really like anyway.

 

[SASU-KE]

it's a disproportional amount of effort for a life I don't even really like anyway.

I can understand this. The juice must be worth the squeeze.

Your Trying to be a good child to your parents and mend things with Them .That's very commendable.

I hope things get better for you.