My life is about to change and Im just scared

[SplitInfrastructure]

I will be moving to a different, bigger city and I cant stop just feeling stressed constantly
Its a place I barely know, there will be many new people, new enviroments and Ill have to find a job as well not knowing where to even search apart from online sites

I wont be alone, Ill be moving in with my best friend and she will help me for sure, but Im just scared and I dont even know why
I technically moved from my mom nearly a year ago, taking only a suitcase and a backpack worth of things, but it was just a 10 minute walk from the flat, I am paranoid that my mom is following me sometimes, I look around a lot before going into the complex, but I cant see myself just moving out like completly. Im irresponsible, Im just scared Ill fuck things up or just something happens and Ill have to either leave or endure it, I dont even know how to start- Ill have to get a private psychiatrist appointment because I skipped my last one because I didnt wanna see that guy again and they lied about my dad being able to take my perscription, which they denied when he was at the place and I dont have a lot left and whenever I even forget them I go so worse Im scared Ill be unbearable. Ill have to get registered somewhere in case Ill be sick anytime and I dont know how to do that, I dont have to pay taxes for the next like 6 years and Im scared about them already and my smoking is getting worse as well because of the stress, Im scared I wont be able to get a job, or will get a dead end one despite having experience in graphic design and wanting to continue this way

Its in a week. I just realized as I was refilling my pill box and had to open a new pack of allergy tabs I bought the exact amount untill the moving since its cheaper than getting a box for three months
I feel like time is just counting down to my death, but I dont hate my friend neither did I ever feel bad about moving out, but the stress is pilling up
good thing I at least can get stoned and got extra to save so I guess its gonna be okay, but Im just so scared

Heres a stupid video so I can stay silly

 

[Linda]

I will be moving to a different, bigger city and I cant stop just feeling stressed constantly
Its a place I barely know, there will be many new people, new enviroments and Ill have to find a job as well not knowing where to even search apart from online sites

I wont be alone, Ill be moving in with my best friend and she will help me for sure, but Im just scared and I dont even know why
I technically moved from my mom nearly a year ago, taking only a suitcase and a backpack worth of things, but it was just a 10 minute walk from the flat, I am paranoid that my mom is following me sometimes, I look around a lot before going into the complex, but I cant see myself just moving out like completly. Im irresponsible, Im just scared Ill fuck things up or just something happens and Ill have to either leave or endure it, I dont even know how to start- Ill have to get a private psychiatrist appointment because I skipped my last one because I didnt wanna see that guy again and they lied about my dad being able to take my perscription, which they denied when he was at the place and I dont have a lot left and whenever I even forget them I go so worse Im scared Ill be unbearable. Ill have to get registered somewhere in case Ill be sick anytime and I dont know how to do that, I dont have to pay taxes for the next like 6 years and Im scared about them already and my smoking is getting worse as well because of the stress, Im scared I wont be able to get a job, or will get a dead end one despite having experience in graphic design and wanting to continue this way

Its in a week. I just realized as I was refilling my pill box and had to open a new pack of allergy tabs I bought the exact amount untill the moving since its cheaper than getting a box for three months
I feel like time is just counting down to my death, but I dont hate my friend neither did I ever feel bad about moving out, but the stress is pilling up
good thing I at least can get stoned and got extra to save so I guess its gonna be okay, but Im just so scared

Heres a stupid video so I can stay silly

It's completely natural to be anxious about doing something new and different, especially when it is as large a change as this one. I'm 70, with plenty of experience of the workd, and I have lived in many different countries on 3 continents. But I would be quite anxious about moving to a new city too, even though I have done it numerous times in the past. Just get on with it, and your anxiety will probably fade away.

 

[SplitInfrastructure]

It's completely natural to be anxious about doing something new and different, especially when it is as large a change as this one. I'm 70, with plenty of experience of the workd, and I have lived in many different countries on 3 continents. But I would be quite anxious about moving to a new city too, even though I have done it numerous times in the past. Just get on with it, and your anxiety will probably fade away.

whoa thats a lot
Do you have anything you could tell someone after they got to a new place? just generally, Im 20 and its really my first step of trying to get out if this shithole of an undeveloped city where its hard to get a job at a shady alcohol store

 

[FuneralCry]

I think it's really understandable feeling dread for what lies ahead, it does sound tiring what you are going through. But anyway I wish you the best of luck.

 

[Linda]

whoa thats a lot
Do you have anything you could tell someone after they got to a new place? just generally, Im 20 and its really my first step of trying to get out if this shithole of an undeveloped city where its hard to get a job at a shady alcohol store

I suggest that you write down all the things that you will need (or want) to do when you get there. Then you need to arrange them in some kind of order, with the most important ones first. Any things that can't be done effectively until something else has been done need to apppear later in your list than the "something else". When you get to the new place, put all your energy into dealing with just the first one or two things on the list (or at most the first few things - the best number will depend on your list, but it should not be a large number). When those things are done, move onto the next one or two. If you try to tackle everything at once you will get depressed - there will be just too much. Being systematic makes the task easier. It does mean that for a while you won't have some of the things you want, but if you are doing it right they will be the less essential things that you can do without for a while.

Another thing to remember is that although you will have (or should have) some plans, your original plan may not work out quite the way you hoped it would. The world is a complicated place, and you can't anticipate everything. So ALWAYS have in reserve a Plan B that you can switch to if your Plan A runs into problems. That means that a setback need not be a disaster. You can just switch smoothly to Plan B, without any stress.

Good luck.

 

[SplitInfrastructure]

I did it! maybe not the most organized but I added exclamation after every more important things, but it was mostly the things I could think of right now, Ill be probably erasing the ones Ill do to make it less cluttered and give myself a sense of completion and add anything if i ever wake up in the middle of the night remembering about something