PapaYeehaw
Indecisive 🧘♀️
- Nov 28, 2021
- 21
2023 was the hardest year of my life. I lost all my friends, my parents moved far away, and I became a huge alcoholic. I have no job and can't drive because my parents refused to help me with that while I was doing high school and college full time.
Anyways, tonight I'm going to try to reach out to an old friend who has a car and also probably doesn't have a job. I'm hoping she can help me get out of the house so I can stop losing my mind. The issue is that her brother hates me because my old friend convinced him that I'm super manipulative and awful (I'm not) and also I had her blocked for almost a year over some drama since she tried to get with my boyfriend without telling me. We're polyamorous so if she just told me first, like I asked to her to do, it would have been fine. Now I'm desperate and I'm gonna try.
If this doesn't work then I have no other option. The loneliness and boredom is driving me insane. I give up if this doesn't work. I've been fighting for too long. This isn't a life I want to live.
If I don't make it, just know it was all Chris's fault. I know it's bad to blame one person, but that's really what it is. I hope he never gets better.
Anyways, tonight I'm going to try to reach out to an old friend who has a car and also probably doesn't have a job. I'm hoping she can help me get out of the house so I can stop losing my mind. The issue is that her brother hates me because my old friend convinced him that I'm super manipulative and awful (I'm not) and also I had her blocked for almost a year over some drama since she tried to get with my boyfriend without telling me. We're polyamorous so if she just told me first, like I asked to her to do, it would have been fine. Now I'm desperate and I'm gonna try.
If this doesn't work then I have no other option. The loneliness and boredom is driving me insane. I give up if this doesn't work. I've been fighting for too long. This isn't a life I want to live.
If I don't make it, just know it was all Chris's fault. I know it's bad to blame one person, but that's really what it is. I hope he never gets better.
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