My kid

[Blackwoods1]

Today I plan on taking sn to end my pain but I leave behind a 1 year old that NEEDS to be found immediately after I ctb any advise ??

 

[Makko]

Send a delayed email to a relative who has keys to your place, or to your local police station.

 

[logan]

Please do not do this under any circumstances when your child is present.

I find this so terribly sad - I have no words ...

 

[Blackwoods1]

Please do not do this under any circumstances when your child is present.

I find this so terribly sad - I have no words ...

She will be in her crib and my door will be unlocked for someone to come and find me I live in apartments everybody is nice here I just need her to be found

Send a delayed email to a relative who has keys to your place, or to your local police station.

I figured maybe ordering something from Walmart and having it delivered by time I ctb . I don't have family that I can email
I feel anxious but I'm ready to go I hate it here I wasn't even ready to have a child at 19 I'm not even a fit parent she can do wayyy better without me

 

[PaxAmerica]

PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS. Not because I wish to interfere in your choice. But because the circumstances are really bad. I was a police officer for over 20 years. One day I attended a suicide where the person rang us to come and look after his dog as he would be dead from hanging by our arrival, but the door would be ajar. We came and I gave him mouth to mouth while my colleague gave chest compressions for 20 minutes. He lived and had no health issues. His dog had walked off though and was never seen again, despite all his planning. And you are talking about a small baby. I hope you will not do this.

I have the shittiest life, the worst luck and life sucks. So I wouldn't interfere unless I really felt need to say this - PLEASE DONT DO THIS.

 

[Makko]

One day I attended a suicide where the person rang us to come and look after his dog as he would be dead from hanging by our arrival,

That's why, if you do this, you should send a delayed email.

 

[Soulless Angel]

IF you must do this, cannot you not give your child to a babysitter or a babysitter prior?

 

[Blackwoods1]

IF you must do this, cannot you not give your child to a babysitter or a babysitter prior?

Unfortunately no I have nobody to watch her , she will not crawl away or anything she will be in her crib maybe I should do it tonight while she is sleeping ?? I told my friend if she doesn't hear from me tonight to call the cops she knows about me wanting to ctb but she is angry that I even put that responsibility on her so now I really have no one ...

 

[karel1987]

not a good plan

 

[AtMostOkay]

Please do not leave your child unattended. Perhaps you can take the baby to a fire department or hospital, sight unseen if necessary, and just leave. Loose end tied up. Peace.

 

[Blackwoods1]

Maybe if I leave my door wide open / ajar tonight and I do it she will be found in the morning when she wakes the whole 6th floor up with her crying lol

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

Maybe if I leave my door wide open / ajar tonight and I do it she will be found in the morning when she wakes the whole 6th floor up with her crying lol

You should call Child Services on yourself if you don't have a friend or relative to watch the baby while you CTB.

Leaving him/her alone intentionally is just irresponsible!

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EDIT: And no offense but there is NOTHING "lol" about this post!​

 

[Apricity]

Not sure if you've ever seen Dr. Sleep. A man hooked up with a woman who had a small child. She overdosed and he didn't realize it, just left the next morning. No one ever came to check and the child died from no food or water. You have the right to CTB if you wish, but you don't have the right to put your baby at risk. If you live in the US, there are safe surrender places at fire stations and hospitals. Take the baby there first.

 

[LittleJem]

I don't think the Walmart idea will work as why would they enter the flat, even if they hear a child crying? If you leave the door ajar, someone might come in while you are trying to CTB.

It also isn't fair to your neighbours that they will find your body. The way lots of people do it is to put up a sign saying 'Please do not enter: call the police.'

What is your method and how quick is it?

Are you sure - have you tried everything to feel better? For example, weed can make me feel better.

Is there a way you can put your child for adoption first? I don't know if that is possible or not, and obviously not that quick.

Is there any help you can get from social services?

I understand what it is to hate this life - I really do. But maybe things could be better? Is there no hope at all? I am 43 - you are 19, so you might have more things to try?

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

This is one of those times where I really hope this is a spoof post by FT26. Thats a better reality than someone leaving a helpless child alone... just plain craziness.

 

[Blackwoods1]

This is one of those times where I really hope this is a spoof post by FT26. Thats a better reality than someone leaving a helpless child alone... just plain craziness.

It's not a "spoof " post , and honestly I don't care about what you think . I just asked for some tips on how my child can be found . I know she will not die and will be found I just don't want her to miss any meals even if it is for a few hours because of me . Regardless of what anyone thinks on this thread I will be doing what I need to do to find my peace all of this is an illusion anyways . Thank you for the somewhat friendly advice and concern

I don't think the Walmart idea will work as why would they enter the flat, even if they hear a child crying? If you leave the door ajar, someone might come in while you are trying to CTB.

It also isn't fair to your neighbours that they will find your body. The way lots of people do it is to put up a sign saying 'Please do not enter: call the police.'

What is your method and how quick is it?

Are you sure - have you tried everything to feel better? For example, weed can make me feel better.

Is there a way you can put your child for adoption first? I don't know if that is possible or not, and obviously not that quick.

Is there any help you can get from social services?

I understand what it is to hate this life - I really do. But maybe things could be better? Is there no hope at all? I am 43 - you are 19, so you might have more things to try?

I will put a sign like that on my bedroom door I have a one bedroom and it's not that big.. my daughters crib is in the living room so they will find her first and even hear her before they find me

You should call Child Services on yourself if you don't have a friend or relative to watch the baby while you CTB.

Leaving him/her alone intentionally is just irresponsible!

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EDIT: And no offense but there is NOTHING "lol" about this post!​

If I want to lol about it I can... didn't ask for all the extra thanks for the advice tho

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

It's not a "spoof " post , and honestly I don't care about what you think . I just asked for some tips on how my child can be found . I know she will not die and will be found I just don't want her to miss any meals even if it is for a few hours because of me . Regardless of what anyone thinks on this thread I will be doing what I need to do to find my peace all of this is an illusion anyways . Thank you for the somewhat friendly advice and concern

I will put a sign like that on my bedroom door I have a one bedroom and it's not that big.. my daughters crib is in the living room so they will find her first and even hear her before they find me

The reality is that if you have no one your friend, neighbor or whomever would have to take the kid to Child Services anyway. So why not just circumvent that from the beginning so that you know she/he is safe?

No-one is against you finding your peace, but there is a right way to do things as a mother. A mother who voluntarily calls Child Services is not typically punished.

You have no idea what's going to happen to the child and all these posts just assuming everything will be fine are not in your child's best interest and at best naive.

 

[LastLoveLetter]

I respect people's autonomy and self-determination. I am firmly pro-choice when it comes to life and death. No-one should be forced to endure an existence they despise, and I'm sorry you are in such a position.

However, having dependants changes matters. You have a small child that relies on you to simply survive. I am not saying this to make you feel guilty or to shame you - it is the truth. If you have no family, no friends and no-one you can turn to, I understand how much more difficult this makes the situation for you. It also complicates matters for your daughter, because it means she is completely dependent on you and you alone. Leaving your door ajar is not a reliable or sensible way of ensuring that she will be found on time or be safe.

Please, please do not risk putting your 1-year-old child in genuine danger by leaving her unattended with the door open. As another member pointed out above, there is a chance that she will not be found in time, that she could possibly escape her crib or even not be found by those with her best interests in mind. Dying with a baby in the next room is endangering them. You may have the right to decide what you do with your own life, but not to leave your daughter's survival in the hands of fate, hoping everything will simply work out when you are gone.

Please make sure she is in safe hands - she at least deserves that much. That is your responsibility and bare minimum duty of care as a parent, even if it is not something you wanted or ever felt ready for.

 

[Blackwoods1]

I respect people's autonomy and self-determination. I am firmly pro-choice when it comes to life and death. No-one should be forced to endure an existence they despise, and I'm sorry you are in such a position.

However, having dependants changes matters. You have a small child that relies on you to simply survive. I am not saying this to make you feel guilty or to shame you - it is the truth. If you have no family, no friends and no-one you can turn to, I understand how much more difficult this makes the situation for you. It also complicates matters for your daughter, because it means she is completely dependent on you and you alone. Leaving your door ajar is not a reliable or sensible way of ensuring that she will be found on time or be safe.

Please, please do not risk putting your 1-year-old child in genuine danger by leaving her unattended with the door open. As another member pointed out above, there is a chance that she will not be found in time, that she could possibly escape her crib or even not be found by those with her best interests in mind. Dying with a baby in the next room is endangering them. You may have the right to decide what you do with your own life, but not to leave your daughter's survival in the hands of fate, hoping everything will simply work out when you are gone.

Please make sure she is in safe hands - she at least deserves that much. That is your responsibility and bare minimum duty of care as a parent, even if it is not something you wanted or ever felt ready for.

I understand that part .. I don't know maybe I didn't think this out thoroughly.. I just don't believe I am putting her in harms way I don't want to get anyone else involved she won't climb out her crib but she will cry this is clearly a reason why I feel like I'm a bad parent just giving the fact I would ctb in the next room with my child watching coco melon . I don't want to get anyone involved what would I tell child protective services ?? Besides I already contacted them they won't take her because her life is not in danger and I can't just " give up parenting " . I just wanna give up on this human life I know I will stay earthly attached after I pass on To higher frequencies

 

[Lost21]

Perhaps you can give up your child to child services before you ctb

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

If Child Services won't take her you could contact an adoption agencey in your town. She has a good chance to be adopted because she is so young. Do you have ANYONE you can drop her off at? I think you said you don't. I'm so sorry to hear all this.

What's pushed you to the edge and wanting to go?

 

[Apricity]

Perhaps you can give up your child to child services before you ctb

She tried, but they wouldn't take the baby.

 

[divorceddepression]

Please take some more time to think about ways to take care of your daughter as much as you can.

 

[toforigivelife]

Hate to ask an obvious question; but is there a friend or neighbor or family member who can take of your child for 24 hours if you decide to go through with this?

Your child may be left unattended for a very long period of time if you are gone and may suffer physical damage due to thirst and hunger or they may hurt themselves physically or fatally.

You must be in intense pain and anguish to the point where you're willing to do this while your child is at home. Things must've gotten just that bad for you and I'm so sorry that you're in this state and that it has gotten to this point, I truly am.

I wish that you were in a better position, I wish things were better for you but is there no one who can watch your baby for a somewhat extended period of time if you do decide to cbt?

 

[Promortalist_]

Before you ctb, PLEASE make sure that your child is in good hands and will receive proper care after you are gone. There are way too many people who are suffering due to traumatic childhood. Make sure that your child will be raised in an environment without pedophiles, alcoholics, and there is no domestic violence. This is just the bare minimum.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Before you ctb, PLEASE make sure that your child is in good hands and will receive proper care after you are gone. There are way too many people who are suffering due to traumatic childhood. Make sure that your child will be raised in an environment without pedophiles, alcoholics, and there is no domestic violence. This is just the bare minimum.

I totally agree. Very unfortunately sometimes foster and adoptive parents are crazy abusive assholes. I think her seeking out an adoption agency would be a good solution. No doubt you are overwhelmed and unhappy. Please try and plan things out for your child to get the best possible chance. Worst case situation I think like others have said your child can be dropped off at a hospital...Idk...

If you do have her stay in apartment with you how long are you going to delay emails? Is an email to the cops? It just seems scary to think would if the emails didn't get sent or something. I've read terrible stories of kids stuck alone for a long time and suffering majorly some to the point of loss of life. Leaving the door open sounds like a bad idea. I guess having your friend call the cops is an option, though would if somehow they don't? Idk.

 

[WatermelonMel]

Doing this when they're with you is simply irresponsible. Please take into consideration what everyone is saying before you go through with anything, and best of luck.

 

[PrettyMoose]

I hope that you don't do this, but if you must then please get your child somewhere safe beforehand.