My hell will start again soon. Should i kill myself before it starts.

[sorrowfull user]

In around a week or two my hell will start soon. Im scared and im not shure if i want to try ending it all for the 7th time. Im afraid and empty and ive been like this for 8 years.im new to this site and ive been in pain for so long. I had a bit fun in the time that i got a break from my hell. And it was nice but im not shure if its worth it to keep going.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so dreadful knowing that existing will get much worse, it's so awful how people suffer so much, existence really is too cruel. But anyway best wishes.

 

[vampira]

If you ctb you let those who wish on your downfall win, is that something you are okay with? I hope you find solace in something, anything and find yourself in a better place. I do really sympathize with you and how dreadful it must be knowing doom approaches.

 

[nadia225]

In around a week or two my hell will start soon. Im scared and im not shure if i want to try ending it all for the 7th time. Im afraid and empty and ive been like this for 8 years.im new to this site and ive been in pain for so long. I had a bit fun in the time that i got a break from my hell. And it was nice but im not shure if its worth it to keep going.

Don't let anybody else determine your fate or any other entity outside yourself do so because you are giving that situation/ person power over your free will to act accordingly. If you found peace and solitude away from a situation/person then it is feasible to do so again you are just going to have to fight for yourself however that may be. Either way if you decide to exit just make sure you are doing so under the impression that you will find peace from that action rather then run away from something that could have been avoided and overcame.

 

[hypercones]

Are you going back to school?

 

[SolomonKado]

In around a week or two my hell will start soon. Im scared and im not shure if i want to try ending it all for the 7th time. Im afraid and empty and ive been like this for 8 years.im new to this site and ive been in pain for so long. I had a bit fun in the time that i got a break from my hell. And it was nice but im not shure if its worth it to keep going.

I am going through something like that right now. My whole life fell apart this year and my whole life hasn't been that good either. In a month everything is going to get extremely worse, but voices of "it's going to get better", "just give it time", and "this will only make you stronger." I've been telling myself my whole life "things will get better" and it feels like a horrible lie because it hasn't. It feels like it's been tattooed on my brain and it disgusts me because I have so much substantial proof against it. I either leave in the next two weeks or my next experience will be homelessness and continue to get worse even after that..