My heart is so tired

[lkjhgfdsa1]

The last couple of days have been so emotionally draining and I am so exhausted.

I wish it could all just be over. All the days are the same and I am simply waiting for the day to pass, waiting till I get an opportunity to ctb.

And at times, I suddenly get euphoric feelings about the future, trying to imagine a future in which my problems do not exist anymore— but as I am hit with reality, everything collapses again, and the darkness in me becomes even darker.

I need to stop this endless cycle. I need to face reality and accept that I lost. I am tired of planning for a future that is not mine. I do not have a future. I do not want a future.

I am so tired

 

[Mi Mi]

The last couple of days have been so emotionally draining and I am so exhausted.

I wish it could all just be over. All the days are the same and I am simply waiting for the day to pass, waiting till I get an opportunity to ctb.

And at times, I suddenly get euphoric feelings about the future, trying to imagine a future in which my problems do not exist anymore— but as I am hit with reality, everything collapses again, and the darkness in me becomes even darker.

I need to stop this endless cycle. I need to face reality and accept that I lost. I am tired of planning for a future that is not mine. I do not have a future. I do not want a future.

I am so tired

Same
The moments of maybe I can make it a few more months
Maybe a year
Turn to absolutely not very quickly

 

[iloverachel]

Yeah I feel you. I also feel I have no future. Some days I just lay in bed and daydream about my dream life which is unattainable and impossible, trying to escape the hellish reality

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Yeah I feel you. I also feel I have no future. Some days I just lay in bed and daydream about my dream life which is unattainable and impossible, trying to escape the hellish reality

I don't even have a dream life anymore. I just want a normal life but even that is unobtainable now.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I need to stop this endless cycle. I need to face reality and accept that I lost. I am tired of planning for a future that is not mine. I do not have a future. I do not want a future.

We may know that we lost in life - I can really relate to that - yet it's not that easy to off ourselves just bc we lost and have no future, even if that is the most logic decision we can ever make.

 

[cowboypants]

The last couple of days have been so emotionally draining and I am so exhausted.

I wish it could all just be over. All the days are the same and I am simply waiting for the day to pass, waiting till I get an opportunity to ctb.

And at times, I suddenly get euphoric feelings about the future, trying to imagine a future in which my problems do not exist anymore— but as I am hit with reality, everything collapses again, and the darkness in me becomes even darker.

I need to stop this endless cycle. I need to face reality and accept that I lost. I am tired of planning for a future that is not mine. I do not have a future. I do not want a future.

I am so tired

Same, I have passed 7 years like that. And I feel like no one likes me, prolly I was immature back then anyway I want out