burninghill
Arcanist
- Dec 2, 2025
- 447
I broke up with my boyfriend and made a post about being conflicted. That has definitely changed. We are no longer talking to eachother; he seemed to be very insecure and kept asking me if I 'really loved him' even when we stopped dating and I just found it to be really strange.
The whole breakup has just solidified the idea in my mind that I'll never be able to uphold any form of relationship, be that platonic or romantic.
Without being able to uphold connection, experience joy in my daily life or have a desire to improve myself and pursue a fulfilling future, it really doesn't seem like there's anything here for me besides appeasing the people who want me alive, like my parents and sister.
I'm so tired of all of this.
I'm tired of wanting to die and doing nothing about it.
I'm tired of making these dumb posts that get me nowhere.
I'm tired of being so lonely every day that I have to make them in the first place. I wish I had support. I wish I had people who cared.
The whole breakup has just solidified the idea in my mind that I'll never be able to uphold any form of relationship, be that platonic or romantic.
Without being able to uphold connection, experience joy in my daily life or have a desire to improve myself and pursue a fulfilling future, it really doesn't seem like there's anything here for me besides appeasing the people who want me alive, like my parents and sister.
I'm so tired of all of this.
I'm tired of wanting to die and doing nothing about it.
I'm tired of making these dumb posts that get me nowhere.
I'm tired of being so lonely every day that I have to make them in the first place. I wish I had support. I wish I had people who cared.
