Cress
Arcanist
- Oct 15, 2023
- 436
Last year my little cousin that I grew up with jumped in front of a train and took his own life.
I was able to befriend Remember on here over the past year but over the holidays they took their SN and took their own life. I found it hard to be on this website after that and was a lot more distant with people. The suicide hit me a lot harder than I was expecting.
Last month my girlfriend Of five years passed away Still waiting on the autopsy Results but something stopped her breathing.
All these people were just turning 30 or younger. I've been feeling incredibly skittish like anyone around me could die at any point. The mental anguish is absolutely brutal I'm getting more and more suicidal day by day.
Constantly going through the loop of clearing out my stomach Over twenty four hours in preparing myself for S N to C T B And bailing at the last minute. I guess I've been looping back and forth with it.
I have a neurological condition that's destroying my body. Particularly my hands eyes and ears. I get an infusion treatment for it every two weeks however my insurances denying all of my medications and I have to fight tooth and nail to try to get them back. My infusion's been delayed by a few weeks now because they refused to cover the order and they're also denying three other medications it's actually kind of funny. All because of their quarterly update and wanting to boost profits for March and April? They really don't deserve to be farming me for money.
I really should just work up the Focus and courage to go through the full SN Regiment And drink that class of SN.
I was able to befriend Remember on here over the past year but over the holidays they took their SN and took their own life. I found it hard to be on this website after that and was a lot more distant with people. The suicide hit me a lot harder than I was expecting.
Last month my girlfriend Of five years passed away Still waiting on the autopsy Results but something stopped her breathing.
All these people were just turning 30 or younger. I've been feeling incredibly skittish like anyone around me could die at any point. The mental anguish is absolutely brutal I'm getting more and more suicidal day by day.
Constantly going through the loop of clearing out my stomach Over twenty four hours in preparing myself for S N to C T B And bailing at the last minute. I guess I've been looping back and forth with it.
I have a neurological condition that's destroying my body. Particularly my hands eyes and ears. I get an infusion treatment for it every two weeks however my insurances denying all of my medications and I have to fight tooth and nail to try to get them back. My infusion's been delayed by a few weeks now because they refused to cover the order and they're also denying three other medications it's actually kind of funny. All because of their quarterly update and wanting to boost profits for March and April? They really don't deserve to be farming me for money.
I really should just work up the Focus and courage to go through the full SN Regiment And drink that class of SN.
Is there a possibility of any relatives or close friends being willing and able to help you pay for your medications?
