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Crow_88

Crow_88

Experienced
Dec 30, 2024
232
This was my closest attempt. It was this past summer in July.

I went deep into the woods and hung a noose from a tree branch. Near where I hung the noose there was a chair that had been brought there at some point. When I put the chair at the base of the tree I could just get my head in the noose. So I did just that - climbed onto the chair, placed the noose around my neck, and jumped.

I was completely suspended for a few seconds. When I went to draw in a breath and couldn't, my instinct reacted and my foot reached back, finding the damn chair that I hadn't knocked over. I climbed back on it and managed to take the noose from around my neck. I had a bruise for a few weeks and there is still something I can feel when I swallow.

Overall, it's really frustrating since it freaked me out and getting back to a headspace where I can make a real attempt has become impossible. After that failed attempt I stuck around to try and do it again but kick the chair out this time. Couldn't do it.
 
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losing hope

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Apr 27, 2022
459
I'm sorry to hear this. Will you be attempting via FSH again?

Also did you experience any pain during this attempt?
 
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Crow_88

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Dec 30, 2024
232
I'm sorry to hear this. Will you be attempting via FSH again?

Also did you experience any pain during this attempt?
I wouldn't go this way again. It turned me off it. There wasn't pain. Instead, a lot of discomfort. Just that feeling of not being able to draw another breath. Like I said, my body reacted against it. My throat was bruised, though.
 
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regular john

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Dec 17, 2020
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how come you didnt kick the chair ?
 
Gangrel

Gangrel

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Jul 25, 2024
505
I'm sorry that happened to you, i too failed full suspension.
 
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Crow_88

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Dec 30, 2024
232
how come you didnt kick the chair ?
The chair wasn't under me. So when I jumped i hung. The chair was behind and to the right of me - if you're talking about the first attempt.

If you're talking about after that when I couldn't bring myself to attempt again. The heart just went out of me for it. It'll be back, though. My problems aren't going away.
probably wanted to test it out first, not so smart imo
Nope. I wasn't testing. Thanks for playing, though