my friends and family don't even care that im going to kill myself

[iamjustapebble]

they don't care. at all. they will only care once i do it. so i guess that's all that's left for me to do so anyone cares

 

[dirkw83]

Well, that sucks a lot. They should care very much that you feel that way. I hope you won't kill yourself though, but if you do, hopefully not because of them.

 

[iamjustapebble]

Well, that sucks a lot. They should care very much that you feel that way. I hope you won't kill yourself though, but if you do, hopefully not because of them.

no, it's for other reasons. it kind of emboldens me to do it even more since though

 

[easypeasy]

they don't care. at all. they will only care once i do it. so i guess that's all that's left for me to do so anyone cares

Oh man, you aren't alone. My mother helped me arrange my will and guided me on which coffin would be nice, as well as the music. I think she knows she'll get sympathy. I could be wrong but I know it's not normal. She's never organised anything for me…but the will? She was there with the lawyer when I signed it. She also told me she wouldn't come to my funeral if my Dads new wife was there, despite them both being in happy relationships and being long divorced.

For what it's worth, if I was your mother, I'd love the shit out of you and I'd do anything to keep you close.

I'm sorry your mother has big issues. Try not to make it too much about her. This is your life and You're wonderful. Her…..not so much.

 

[hdead]

Oh man, you aren't alone. My mother helped me arrange my will and guided me on which coffin would be nice, as well as the music. I think she knows she'll get sympathy. I could be wrong but I know it's not normal. She's never organised anything for me…but the will? She was there with the lawyer when I signed it. She also told me she wouldn't come to my funeral if my Dads new wife was there, despite them both being in happy relationships and being long divorced.

For what it's worth, if I was your mother, I'd love the shit out of you and I'd do anything to keep you close.

I'm sorry your mother has big issues. Try not to make it too much about her. This is your life and You're wonderful. Her…..not so much.

That's interesting. My parents are similar. They're actually willing to help me, even though realistically they can't. It's strange because when I talk to them about the details and what they would be getting theirselves into they kinda stare blank. They have no idea what they're talking about lol..

 

[Exhausted546]

This is insane, I mean on one end getting sent to psych ward then treated as insane is bad but in another hand this is horrible too

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I'm sorry to hear. Is there anything practical they could do to help if they cared? Is it possible that they care, but just don't know how to help? Or no?

 

[iamjustapebble]

I'm sorry to hear. Is there anything practical they could do to help if they cared? Is it possible that they care, but just don't know how to help? Or no?

no. she sent me to a mental hospital once but it just made it worse. because i'm trans it meant it was a-okay for me to be treated poorly by nurses, sexually harrassed by one woman and molested by another. i cant even really get help in therapy because id need to talk about how suicidal i am and i dont know if they wont threaten me with that.