The journey for me is a path that I am walking down trying to find the end. I have not reached the time to exit. It sometimes feels like I just don't have the energy to leave the world. Kind of pathetic, I know. It takes all the effort I can come up with just to get out of bed.
I keep thinking that I will know when it is time as a sort of peace will settle over me. There are times when I think that I am ready to slip the noose around my neck and just go off to the next world. But I just don't feel like going through the process. Not scared mind up, just not able to get up the physical drive to do it. I am hoping to find the right location for my exit, although I am not sure exactly where that will be. I do know that I don't want to walk into some woods and hang from a tree. It just seem too cold and impersonal. I am rambling here a little, I know.
I do know that I will have a nice meal and bottle of wine when it is time. Then go to my location and do my final prep before exiting. I have even decided what I want to wear.
One thing I can't decide on is if I will exit alone or with a partner. At times I feel like exiting with someone will make it easier and they will provide a certain level of comfort and caring. On the other hand there are a lot of complications with exiting with a partner so I am up in the air on that one.
I do agree with your comment that there is a comfort in this group, I really don't feel like people are judging me. I can speak and the folks will listen and understand. That is a bid help.