My family is brutally fighting rn

[pleaseletmeperish]

Extremely loud voices. Vulgar language. I know the neighbours are sick of this shit. Won't blame them if they complain to the landlord or something.

My brother started the fight- I don't know what the reason was but it's not like he needs one. He screamed at them for money, while being very financially irresponsible. I know he has a drinking habit, I guess that contributes to his volatility. Maybe he wants to go drink . It kills me when my father says he doesn't have any money- my parents deserve better. I hate my brother. He destroys me.

I am tired. So tired. I feel unsafe in my own house. Like I did as a child, when he would similarly abuse me. I can't stand the noise. I can't stand the fear of being locked out of the bathroom- it is attached to his room, and he threatens to lock himself up so I can't use it. I hate having to reduce my food and water consumption so I don't have to use the washroom. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I mean, wouldn't it likely partly be your parents' fault for him turning out this way? They were the ones who raised him and it's clear that they didn't bother to address any of his issues from a young age, including him abusing you. I feel like they likely are not completely innocent here.