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friday21st
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- Apr 16, 2023
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So last Saturday I thought I was 100% ready to go through with it. I had the noose and notes ready. I stayed up until 3am thinking "tonight is the night" the whole time and I was okay with it. However when I was putting my shoes on to leave I broke down crying and I couldn't catch my breath. (I think this may have been a panic attack but I've never had one before so idk). Could this have been survival instinct kicking in? Or could this mean I'm not ready even though I believe I am?